Have you ever cared and loved someone so much that it hurts so bad when they leave? Like, it hurts even to see them. To see their picture. Read their texts to you. Every time your phone buzzes, you think it's them. But it's not. It never is. The things that you started to love because they loved it, they all slowly fade away. You can't listen to certain bands anymore because they remind you of that person. You can't go certain places anymore cause of the memories. You can't listen to that certain song anymore.
You lay in your bed at 3 am thinking of that person and you start crying. You start coming up with all of these questions like did they ever really care? did they ever really love you? or was it all just a game? was it all just a lie? You start thinking these thoughts until it slowly tears you apart.
You miss every little thing that they did. The good morning and goodnight texts. The feel of their hand against yours. The way they would comfort you when you were on the verge of losing it. How they said they would never leave.
When that person leaves, it's like they take a part of you with them. It leaves you feeling empty. People say it gets better over time, but then you start to question that. Does it really get better over time? Or is that just something people say so you'll stop talking about it for awhile?
Days pass, weeks, months, years. Still, you feel pain every time you think back to that time. And you still hurt whenever you think about it because you know that a part of you will always be missing. No matter how much time passes.
Sincerely,
Ally Rose
