Savannah Benson
January 27,2016
How Did This Happen To Me
Did you known that 20% of kids are abused every day. By parents or other people in there life will if you just stick around you will hear a sad divesting true story of a 16 year old teen girl and her life so if you're aching to hear more about abused kids and how they overcome their changes in life with mean problems stay close don't go away.
Hello my name is vanna I am 16years old and have been abused since I was 5years old I am going to tell you the scary sad truth about me you may cry or feel bad but that's ok I wouldn't be telling you this story if I didn't want you to know how I feel about my life. And how I am getting better slowly there is so much to tell and how many times I have sat in my room crying or the time when I run away from home and didn't come back .
There is days when I have flashbacks about the kids at school bullying me and say I can't do anything and I known I shouldn't believe them but I do and I Cry about it a lot. I let them get in my head. Then I make myself feel bad and I am literally killing myself from the inside out I think all the croll and horrible things they say about me. I beat myself up about what they say about me. I will go home and keep my mouth quiet and just do my own thing because I know if I say something I'll upset matt and then he'll yell at my mom and my mom will be sad and I get super sad.
Today has been a really sad and crazy day i'm going through a lot I mean I lost my best friend died on the 20th of this moth I known she wouldn't want me to be sad over her forever but it's really really hard I had to storm out of a class today and go see my school counselor and talk to her about it. My boyfriend Caleb is super support of me he came with me today to talk to the school counselor because last night matt got mad at me because I said one second and I'll go do the dishes will he go so mad that he pushed me down and hit me and my collarbone on the couch and got a big bruise it was so bad that the doctor said I wasn't aloud to wear my back page on my one solder . Caleb got so upset that he called the cops on my step dad but that never works because his friend will bail him out.
There's those days were vanna feels like giving up like there's no reason to live in a world where people are beating up on her and saying she's doing things when she's not like reporting her to the school office for cutting her wrist will i'm sorry that your life isnt perfect so you have to beat up someone that's so weak that just lost her bff and her horse and her life she spiraling out of control she doesn't know why it's happening to her but it is and she runs away to her grandmas when she doesn't feel safe her boyfriend caleb doesn't like the way she's being treated he cries in pain for her he is one of those you hurt her you die type of guys will one night vannas step dad matt was upset about something that happened at his work and he came home drunk.
There was a time when i was happy and loving life and so happy to be alive and to be out in the world at age 11 but then it all changed one night matt came home not happy with his job or the people he used to love like his wife misty he used to love her so much and now he's changed alot he beats his wife and his daughter vanna he verbally abuses his wife he mentally and physically abuses his 16 year old daughter he raped his daughter and he hits her when he gets mad vanna just takes the beats for her little sister cloie because she doesn't want her to have to grow up without a dad like she has all her life.
How did i let my life get so fuged up i mean one day it was rainbows and magic and everything was great it couldn't be better she was 6 and happy and loving her life with her new dad matt and her dog and cat it was great vanna got to be in the wedding as the flower girl she loved it it was at the kapowsin grange it was a beautiful day outside the sun was shining and it was fabulous auntie olena did her hair it was specially grouse at this time in vanna's life her hair was super super long like passed her knees it was so pretty her auntie put baby breath in her hair and twisted it up in a lovely braid. That's just some background information on her life.
ok you all if you thought that beginning of this story was crazy then you're really going to be in for a ride so buckle up and hang in there for the ride because it's going to get crazy.
Vanna gets home and gets yelled at by her agrestic step dad and he hits her with a baseball bat and she gets sad and cuts her wrist and watches it bleed and just for a little bit it makes her feel better somehow she doesn't know how but it does she cries for help but no one listens to her it's killing her inside and out she doesn't know what to do. She ask for help but no one listens she thinks what if a teacher saw my arms or legs were i have cut would they even care would someone somewhere listen to hear and hear her pain but the people that say they really care about her just are there for a little bit to learn about her problems and they say i'll never leave you i love you and then they just walk out the door.
So today was a really shitty day for vanna the night was great she had 4-H and that was a lot of fun for her being surrounded by people that love her and care about her and her will being and she knows that but sometimes it doesn't feel like it at all and vanna will cry there was one night when she came home crying in her mom's arms because of being bullied and things at home where so bad vanna completly stoped talking to her mom for months after that and her boyfriend dumped her which made things worse for her she thinks about cutting her wrists and watching the blood drip but then she thinks about all the other people she would be hurting not just herself but everyone around her .
Vanna finally reached out to get some help but that was one of the most hardest things for her to do she was having a meltdown from everything that as happened to her in the past and in the present . Vanna was feeling beat down and sad she didn't know were to turn to she told her auntie tina about her cutting and about her getting about abused and the horrible thing that she was thing her auntie said every is going to be ok i'm here for you and then vanna and tina looked up counselors online on www.counseling .com and vanna found one she liked alot and now vanna is becoming a more happier person she is moving out of her house into her grandmas and it's perfect because she can see her horse every day now and she loves it . Vanna is now going to counseling 2times a week since her bff died and she has been clean from cutting for 8 days so far it's going to take time but she's getting there and she is loving life more and more everyday in the words of her bff peace love be free and have a great rest of your day byee you all love you all .
