Who Do I Love More??

Finalising Things

I couldn't remember how i fell asleep on the bed but the last thing i remembered was me writing negative points on my notebook. But there was one thing i had remembered and it was that i was going to move on....

I didn't know how difficult this was to be or maybe after seeing the girl mum suggested i might really like her and maybe it might be easier for me to move on. All i knew was one thing i had to tell this girl everything about my past.

"boys don't cry" you hear that often but i have cried and i admit it and that only time i cried as a mature boh was when i had lost my all and everything.

As i walked downstairs i saw mum reading a rather long e-mail with tears in her eyes sitting along with my best friend Jenna. I nicknamed her jen for short and she loved it. I had always thought of a relationship with my best friend and to be honest i have thought of it but even thinking of it disgusts me not because she was bad or anything just because we were too much of best friends for any of that. Even she agreed, we had a detailed conversation about this actually. As i was coming closer to the sofa where they were sitting with a laptop on Jens lap, mum suddenly shut the computer and wiped her tears and asked me if i wanted to go out for dinner today. I just knew there was something going on first she was crying, then she shuts the laptop quickly. I didn't answer mums question but i started questioning her about the very suspicious signs. She just laughed and said it was nothing but Jens interrupted mums laugh and said "we have to tell him someday, its for the best." Mum nodded as she believed everything Jens said.

Jenna opened her laptop and opened her e-mail.

Dear Jens
I know that Callum is your friend well best friend amd i thought saying this to you would really really help with everything. I guess it is good for Callum and me. I just wanted to say i have feelings for Callum and that is why i asked his mum if we could meet up. I really do love him. Its just something a out and this is not something that staryed yesterday its been a few years. Even before Ann disappeared. I was just scared to tell him. Please do something i cant think about anything else nowadays.

Love
Nikki (your best friend)

After i had read the mail i knew that i had to meet her and talk to her about this. She had trusted Jenna to keep this a secret because they were best friend but so were me and Jens so she had to tell me or that would be equal to be betrayed. I didn't know she had known about Ann but that made me feel a lot more comfortable about talking to her about my past with Ann.

And finally i had arranged to meet her at the cafe a few Streets down from where i lived. It wasn't a formal date or anything but this was as important as one. This could maybe lead the way to my love of life the one i searched for and got but lost before i a blink of an eye so here was another one. I wondered how this will turn out.