Tattoos ♠Muke♠ boyxboy

Rant

Okay, let's get something straight here, dude.

I am tired of being left out. You and someone else have been together all fucking week and the only thing you've said to me is one word answers!

I get it, you'd like to catch up with them, but would it kill you to include me in the conversation??

Like today. I walk up to you, don't get a hello or a single glance. I sit down next to you, but keep my distance. You were in a deep conversation and I waited until you were done to speak.

Well, the conversation never ended.

Then someone sits in between us and I lost it. Our friendship is drifting. It hurts like a bitch but it could have easily been prevented.

Then we go to our first class. Usually, me and you walk together while she walks with her boyfriend. That was totally cool with me.

But now you three have made a group and I haven't seen a welcome mat for myself, you know, because all of us are friends.

I walk to my classes alone. That's cool.

Then I get to the locker room and surprise surprise! The conversation is still going on.

So, me and you, we're "running buddies," remember? Well, that changed too. You and her are glued to the hip while I'm following like a lost puppy.

I love you both to death, don't get me wrong, I just feel... Abandoned.

People have asked me left and right if I'm okay and I say yes to get them to be quiet when I really want to scream no and cry like the little baby I am.

All I want to do is cry. I feel like that's all I can do.

And then I had to make my own fucking arm bleed to get your attention! You asking me if I'm okay felt like a blessing!

But if you don't want me around anymore, that's fine. I get it. I won't sit near you in the morning anymore. I have a few other friends (shocker, I know).

Now don't even message me later on and say things that makes me look like the bad guy.

I love you both so so so so so so much! Why is it falling apart now? I'm crying as you read this.

I question myself all the time about what I could have done to make this happen. And guess what? I couldn't find anything, but I still questioned.

Without you, Morgen and Emily, I would be absolutely nothing! You guys changed my life for the better! Things are just too shaky now, and I don't feel like playing Jenga with shaking ground.

I'm sorry if I did anything to make this happen, I really am. I miss you both so much it hurts.

Tomorrow, I'll just stay out of your way. You won't see me a lot. For band, I'll just keep to myself.

I just think we need time to cool off before the fire grows bigger.

So, with that being said, I am so sorry for whatever it was I did. I love you both and I hope you know that.

And readers, don't even think about giving them shit. If I so much as see any of it I will block you faster than you can blink.

Bye guys.

-Audrey