my heart hurts because of you.
every time you looked at me, i pretended not to see.
whenever i see you, i feel sad. an ache in my stomach, yet i'm not sure why. i feel the need to see you; you are on my mind 24/7, but i feel like crying when we're in the same room together.
i've never been good at expressing my feelings.
keeping all my problems, stress and hatred towards myself has been bottled up for a while now.
i try to meet your expectations but i'm not sure how to.
i feel jealous of those who can talk to you without feeling so self conscious and afraid of saying the wrong thing.
i don't know if i like you.
i don't do crushes because you literally get crushed.
what i do know is that i want to hug you and cry and hold your hand.
i'm not sure why.
you don't seem like the type of person to do that.
i hope you are.
i think i'm falling.
but i don't know if i like you.
i want to see you,
but you're not mine.
and perhaps you never will be.
because of how afraid i am to express how i feel. because i don't know if i like you.
a/n;
does anybody even read this? I might delete it.
