The Pain and Beauty of Love

The Party

I arrived a little later than planned but Brandon told me it was ok. All I heard was "BAILEY!!!" and turned to see my bestfriend Cameron.

"CAMERON" she hugged me. Her hugs are the best she makes you not want to let go, just the right amount of squeeze. "I've missed you Cam" I haven't seen her for almost two weeks, she went on another surprise family trip.

"I've missed you too Bae" she made up my nickname when we first met.  She said it's fits perfect for me, not because my name but only because it means poop in Dutch. She said its fits with all the shit the comes from my mouth.

I looked around this cramped room and noticed Brandon sitting in a small circle. Our tradition was whenever we see each other, we try and scare each other, I currently hold first place for a couple weeks ago. I scared him so bad I think he peed a little! I walked quietly as possible and as soon as I came up to him I grabbed his shoulder and yelled. I don't know what was funnier: his expression, or how his drink was no longer in his cup, but all over his jeans.

"BAILEY" Why do always scare me so bad?!" he smiled his half smile showing he wasn't mad at me, but trying to act like it.

"I don't know, I guess I'm just a natural. Unlike some people...". he just rolled his eyes.  We all started walking around the room, you know mingling getting some food and doing random shit you do at parties.

I heard a yell right in my ear, "I HAVE AN IDEA!" a short girl who has the body of a super model, I'm guessing was the hostess, was standing behind my seat. "SPIN THE BOTTTTLLLLLEEEE"

"Oh, you don't have to play, I'll sit out with you if you want." Brandon was being typical Brandon trying to be the nicest to me.

"Actually," I started "Cody really pissed me off tonight...spin the bottle might not be that bad"  I grabbed his arm and stared towards the direction where all the people were sitting.

It started small, just a few guys from school I never really have talked to, some hot some....not.  But it started getting more, more rules like has to be longer than 3 seconds, and, if a girl lands on a girl you have to do it. But the thing is: I didn't care. I mean I've been faithful, for so long, I've never even thought about cheating...I don't care though. I don't know what that means, but it has to mean something.

It's my fifth turn and I spin and land on Brandon, again  I've already landed on him twice.  Now since it's our third turn we have to really make out.  So I awkwardly walk over to him, who's across the circle, while everyone does little "oooo's" like we're in junior high.  I have to sit on him, it's getting more and more weird as I look at him and he's so close to my face...and suddenly we're kissing, and everyone's counting, but the moment I kissed him, it's like I never kissed anyone before.  This isn't like me and Cody's kiss, no because I feel like I never want to kiss anyone else, only him.

"9...10...11-"
I snapped out of it, I pulled away from him and laughed a little, surprised about how long we stayed like that. I walked back to my spot as everyone shared their oh my god bailey's, and, that had to have meant something's.
I was thinking that too. I looked up at him and I realized he was probably thinking the same thing as he was slightly smiling and looking at the ground, I think he was blushing. My first thought was "he's so goddamn cute."

Shit.