Craving for Romance

Prologue

Craving for Romance

Prologue

                                                           26 May 2012

                                                                          10:47 am

Dear Diary,

I’m going to be 16, HOORAY!!! It means that I’ll have more permission to do whatever I want and whenever I want. I’m so excited. I’ve even listed a couple of things to do when I turn 16. I’ve registered for a piano class (which is going to start next Tuesday!! OMG!!) and successfully wrote lyrics for two songs, which I am going to add tunes when I learn how to play ;-)  It makes me jump every time that I’m really shaping my dream to be a pianist.

But, still, something…… some unacceptable thing has not changed yet. Guess what??? I’m SINGLE. There has been no change in my relationship status on Facebook and in real life since I knew what love is.

Yep, that’s right. I’ve plenty of crushes and 1 or 2 serious feelings for some creeps (that’s what I called when they break my heart, though at some point my heart still aches) but nobody seems to work out with me.

Here’s a list of men who broke my heart….

(1)           Name         -  Matt Johnson

 Height        -  5’8”

 Sexiness     -  4.7  (This is rated between 1 to 10)

 Manliness   -  0.0001%  (That bad? Na, it’s worse)

I met this guy when I was 11. He was in my English class and we got on pretty well at first. We were always like together during classes (never really had a chance to hang out though,  I guess, we are in a relationship of  so-called-close-friends-but-actually-nobody-gives-a-damn-about-each-other-and-in-the-end-memory-becomes-dust. Wow, that’s a pretty long name.)

He happened to hook up with the Prom Queen and they were like glue and super glue. They would make out in the school bus, kiss in the canteen, flirt in the hallway, squeeze each other, and do every couple things in front of me. He even gave me the nickname “Buffalo” for not having the smooth and light skin as his nasty girlfriend. I kicked his precious, delicate point which in the other meaning is “dick”.

(2)          Name         -  Eric Woods

Height         -  6’

Sexiness      -  8.0 (That guy was pretty hot)

Manliness    -  96% (Yep, I liked him a lot)

My first love. Sweet guy, sweet smile, sweet talk, sweet walk, everything is sweet, except his nosy habit.

He has been trying to get a girlfriend since he was 5 (that’s what his sister told me and I firmly believe it judging by his behaviors) and yet there is no sign of success. I would have become his girlfriend if I was in his list of to-stalk girls.  I’ve seen the sweetest side of him which most of his girls obviously didn’t see and fell in love with it. He was very handsome and my heart would always skip a beat whenever he stared me in the eyes. His eyes held mystery, still beautiful. It’s like staring into an ocean full of wonders. Fortunately, his sister once told me about his feelings, how he is starting to fall for me. But unfortunately, he never confessed and in the end, I was left alone when their family moved to another town.

Nevertheless, if I met him in coincidence, I would ran to him, kiss him deep on lips, hug him and say “Damn, I miss you.”

(3)          Name         -    Michael Robert

Height        -    6’2”

Sexiness     -    100  (Don’t blame me. I just love him a

                                lot more than anyone)

Manliness   -    10000%  (My heart could drop)

Ok, look, I love this guy. I love him more than Juliet loves Romeo, Beyonceဲ loves Jay-Z, Jolie loves Brad Pitt, Selena loves J.B and Taylor Swift loves all her boyfriends. I love him like the sky, the earth, the sun, the moon. I love him now, then and forever.

But fate is such a bitch…. No,no.. I’m the bitch for loving the man who would never fall for me. He and I were neighbors since I was born. He was my childhood friend.  I’d never thought that I would fall that deep for him. My childhood friend turns into someone who I could never be able to replace.  I thought he was falling for me too. When I was about to confess, he told me about a girl who he couldn’t help his feelings for. They started to date after a few weeks. And after a few months, they went steady. And after their anniversary, they eloped. They are living a wonderful life in different town now. He always writes to me about their life there. I didn’t get the chance to possess the second most important man in my life but I’m still helping him out by giving advices to strengthen his relationship. I know that he loves her a lot.

These are the men who broke my heart in the worst possible way. But you know what, I, the craziest person in the world, still believe in love. I believe in Love at First Sight, I believe in Long Lasting Relationships, I believe that I deserve to be loved by someone who intend to spend the rest of his life with me. I want love; I crave for love because I love “Love”.  People might take me as a fool but I don’t care. I’ll believe in love till I find the one who was born for me……