~ A'raya ~
" WHAT THE HELL PROD ! I TOLD YOU I WANTED HER GONE ! "
" WELL IM SORRY IF I WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH MY BESTFRIEND "
" BUT WHAT DID I TELL YOU ! "
i woke up to Craig and Akiyah arguing.i was hella confused. why Akiyah mad that im here with Prodigy.its not like they ... go out ? TF !
Me : Akiyah ?
Akiyah : WHAT BITCH !
Me : Why on Gods great green earth are you mad because im here with Craig ?
Akiyah : so i guess you caught on
Me : caught on to what ?
Akiyah : we go out
Me : you've GOT TO BE KIDDING ME ! why would you do that ? you know how i feel - well felt about him.
Akiyah : i know and thats why i did it. you honestly thought i was gonna let you slide for what you did
Me : what the hell did i do ?
Akiyah : Erik Lamar Jones. does that ring a bell ?
Me : ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS ! I TELL YOU ALL THE TIME I HAD NO FEELINGS FOR HIM ! HE CAME ON ME AND HONESTLY IDONT KNOW WHY YOURE SO MAD BECAUSE YALL WAS NEVER TOGETHER ! YOU LIKED HIM ! but whatever . and Craig ... Craig Craig Craig. im done here.
then i left. i was sooo done with them two. Craig had the option of saying no but i guess he liked her. damn and to think i really liked this boy. and Akiyah selfish ass gon really do that to get back at me. you know what im not even gonna tripp. she can have him. i hope they have a long , wonderful relationship. they aint gotta worry about me.
( A/N : Akiyah's in the multimedia )
i was riding through the streets like i was racing. i was LIVID ! how could my own bestfriend do that to me. but its ya day 1 niggas that get you the worst. i had " Pigs " by Tyler , the Creator blasting. this song got me wanting to kill her. i wish Alesha was here cause she would of got ratchet and 2.1 seconds. shieeet i really know what i gotta do.
~ Alesha ~
" under the water you scream so loud but the silence surrounds you. but i hear it loud and you fall in the deep and i'll always find you. if my red eyes dont see you anymore , and i cant hear you through the white noise . just send your heartbeat , i'll go to the blue ocean floor. where they find us nomore. on that blue ocean floor..... "
its been 3 months since i saw everyone. i heard Craig and Akiyah goes out. that fucking bitch. its been 3 months since Tye died. i miss him so much. he was the only person that understood me. he was the only on that i looked forward to seeing. kissing him and hugging him was always the highlight of my day. people would be like " aww " or "get a room" but that didnt matter to us cause we was on Cloud 9. sitting in my dark room everyday not leaving unless to eat or use the bathroom has really took a toll on me. i just sit here thinking about all the good times me and Tye had .. all the bad. how life would be if he was still here and never fell in love with .... Ashiya.
" two thousand leauges away , catch up to you on the same day. travel at the speed of light , thinking the same thought at the same time. heartbeats at a steady pace , ill the rhythm show me the way. no one can find us here , fade out and disappear .... "
Dear Loves ,
by the time you read this note ill be home to my creator , my savor , my God. life here isnt just right and i dont want to burdon you anymore. please dont cry i'll be fine. To my beloved parents , thank you for taking care of me and putting up with me for these past 16 years but God will put up with me and take care of me for now on. To my beloved friends , i love you guys with all my heart. but the way my mind is set up , its my time to go. God and his angels will be my new bestfriends for now on. thanks for everything . now to my beloved A'raya , thank you for saving my life before but you cant save me again. i promised you i would never leave you but im sorry. after that whole blowup i tried i really did but i could only take but so much. you are my everything and will always be my everything. i love you more than i love myself. now you can have all my clothes and shoes lol but seriously A'raya .... i love you and i'll be watching over you. thanks A'raya Alerah Abreu. love you.
i'll see you guys in the mean time,
Alesha Janelle Smith aka " LeLe"
and BAM ... im gone .
