The Silent Cry

Today is the day she realized that she is nothing but a mess up. That no one needs her so why should she still be here is a mystery to her...

It seens as thought he hates her, that shes nit good enough for him. She knows this so she is trying to stop him before he makes the mistake of meeting her becasue she would be the biggest mess up he would ever meet.

This stupid mess up has falling in love with a man she has never met face to face... The girls life is over, she has no friends, no soical life, and is now inlove with the man that I speck of. She has no right to clain him hers when in fact she has no hold to him. He can do as he wishes, this is what she tells him. All she wants him to do is say yes and be her boyfriend , hold her tight, and tell her that she will always have him...

She dreams of the day that they meet but in her heart she knows that it will never happen because she sees the fear in his eyes and knows that at the last second he will break her heart into a million peices by not coming. Her life will be truely over because this is the guy she was destin to be with no matter what other people say...

She can feel the way his touch will give her butterflies and goosebumps but she doesn't know what it will feel like for him to say he truely loves her and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with her. She knows that her imagination is to big and that he will never ask her to marry him because they are young and will choose someone else later. They love each other to the point that can't say good-bye to each other without knowing they will miss each other...

All this lonely girl can do anymore is just think about the future and hope and pray that what she sees in her dreams will someday come true. So her life will be halfway normal and not a living hell as it is today...

And this is how her everyday life goes but she has learned very well to hide this pain that she feels. She makes people belive that she is happy when truely all she wants to do is die and be forgotten so that people will start to listen to the silent message she has tried many times to tell them...

She knows something is wrong with her because she sees the depression that normal teenagers get but hers is sever. To top that off, she refuses to show emotions and because of this she has so much built up inside her that she is quick to accuse and is willing to do anything that would release some of that tention without anyone knowing. Sadly she has yet to find a way out..

So she sits here day in and day out searching for a way out that she knows she will never find...

She tells the guy that is suppose to love her and yet he over looks her silient cry for hep...

This young girls problem will never be addressed because she keeps it a secret to herself and to no one else...

This young girl is me....