Reality

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Hi, I'm Ashley but my friends call me ash. I'm 15 and I'm not the most perfect girl. I like to act tough so no one knows the real me. I have my insecurities but I don't like to show that. People know me as the person they can count on to not cry when they need someone to be strong for them and to kick some butt if I need to.

My insecurities are slowly getting to me though and I can't help but let them take over me. I'm sure you were expecting some, perfect fit beautiful girl but I'm short and I'm not what you would consider fat but I'm not skinny either. You would think it would be some stupid weight thing to be my top insecurity but it's only one. My biggest one is one that nobody really knows of but I can't help but want to cry. I have stretch marks. And not just some belly stretch marks I could get rid of by loosing weight but breast and thigh ones. I can't wear low cut t-shirts or tank tops and I can't wear cute booty shorts because these nasty red marks that paint my skin like an angry painting. I used to think I could get rid of them but they have gotten so bad that I no longer like to look at myself in the mirror. I almost cry every time I take a shower because of the angry lines engraved into my skin.

I'm not always so depressed I love to have fun with friends and everything but I can't help but rant about these damn insecurities.

I love to write, draw, sing and play the guitar, and even though it's kind of old school I love to skate board.

My parents are divorced but it has never really bothered me because I never got accustomed to them being together as I was only 2 when they got a divorce, I love my parents and my step parents.

I have 3 brothers, Josh and Trey are the 2 older ones and I love them so much. I have one younger one named jake and I absolutely despise him. My mom always yells at me saying it won't last but we don't have a sibling rivalry type relationship. He is a pig and a brat and I absolutely despise the little insect. He loves to do anything that could possibly annoy me and he's very rude sometimes and I think he forgets that I'm 5 years older then him because for some odd reason he acts like i should serve his every command. I could rant forever on how Much I despise the little ignorant brat but I rather not.

"Ashley you up yet?!" My mom yells at me from her room.

Of course I'm up I wake up an hour earlier then her but for some reason she always checks even though I've been doing this for 3 years now.

"Yes, mom." I say straightening my long red hair.

"Ashley where's my phone!?"my little brother yells barging into my room.

"Get out of my room" I grumble finishing the final strand.

"Ohh I'm so scared" he says trying to mock a scared tone.

I walk over to the little beast and shove him roughly out of my room.

"Sorry I prefer not to have beastly little pests in my room" I growl at him.

I walk back into my room to my dresser to find some clothes and finally settle on light brown combat boots skinny blue jeans and a red and blue
Flannel making sure to button all the way to the top to not show my nasty stretching scars.

I brush my teeth wash my face then I quickly put on a light coat of mascara curling my eyelashes and then adding some some chap stick to my chapped lips.

I grab my back pack and make my tiny lunch of two small oranges and a water bottle roughly shoving it into my bag and grabbing my headphones and phone.

I check and see I got a text from my best friend Raven.

Raven: hey we're you at?

Me: omw calm your titties.

Raven: hurry up she who shall not be named is here.

Me: Voldemort has a wife?

Raven: what?

Me: nvm I'm Omw be there in 5.

I put my phone In my pocket swiftly connecting my Bluetooth headphones and grabbing my skateboard locking the door behind me.

Once I arrive my friend Raven runs up to me. She's one of the only people who's shorter then me but she considers me tall.

"Hey" I say taking my headphones out.

"What's up?" She asks.

"Freezing my booty off!" I mumble.

We both walk into the boring school that reminds me of a prison and walking up the stairs to my locker to put my backpack away.

I walk into my first period right as the bell rings sitting next to my friend Alice. Asking her for a piece of gum that she always has.

The teacher starts talking some baloney about
This bird he found on the street and I space out staring at Calum. I have the biggest crush on him. He's tall funny and cute and I just really like him. He doesn't speak the best English since he's only lived in America for two years but he knows quit a lot and I just really like him.

It's pretty much like this for the rest of the period till the bell rings and I walk out and meet my friend Victor to walk to second period. Victor is one of my closest friends and he's honestly like another brother to me. He carries my binder because my arms are already hurting from my piles of home work and class work.