Last Love

Chapter 4

He opens his mouth to say something but I cut him off.

"It's okay, I get it. I just acted super desperate but you could have just said you didn't want to have sleep with me." I almost snap.

"What are you talking about?" he says puzzled. Wow he's a good actor. He probably has a lot of practice with this situation.

"You could have said no instead of leaving me there, completely embarrassed. I'm not mad, I wouldn't want to have sex with me either." I sound like a psycho bitch, good lord.

He walks over to me and snakes his arms around waist, pulling me until we're completely pressed against each other.

"Kate, the only reason I left was because I didn't have a condom." He says holding up a condom.

My face turns crimson. "I am legit crazy."

He laughs. "No you're not. Now lets go back to my room."

I'm lying on Nate's bed and all I have on is a bra and panties. My conscious orders me to cover my thunder thighs with a blanket, and I oblige.

"Don't." Nate says as he takes his pants off.

"Don't what?"

"Be insecure. You don't need to cover your body up, you have nothing to be ashamed of." He says so softly.

I can't help it. I don't know if it's the fact that he complimented me, or all the hormones in the room but I sit up on my knees and pull Nate onto me. He's heavy on top of me, but I don't mind.

"Do you want to-uh- be on top?" He sounds embarrassed asking.

"No!" I say to quickly. Although I'm blessed with not a totally gross stomach, there is no way in hell I'm going to let him see my massive thighs- plus I'd probably suffocate him.

Nate rolls over so we're both lying on our backs beside each other. Mmhm, his bed sheets are so soft. I don't look but I can hear him rip open the condom packet. I take that as a cue to remove my panties. I sit there anxiously waiting for Nate, is putting on a condom supposed to take this long?

Finally Nate rolls over and traps me beneath his body.

"You ready?" he asks, like a gentleman.

I smile and nod.

"Can you take it easy on me?" I look away from him, completely humiliated. "This is kind of my first time..."

I expect him to make joke about me still being a virgin but instead he kisses me. Not a hard kiss but a reassuring one. Letting me know that it's ok.

He repositions his hips and I feel it instantly. He enters me slowly and I can't help but whimper slightly.

"You okay?"

"Yup." I squeak.

Very slowly, he begins to move. His head rests on my shoulder and his breath is hot against my neck as he gives me little kisses. The pain is different then I imagined. I thought it was going to be like a burning pain- because of the friction or something. I'm a bright girl so I should have known that it was going to be a sharp, tearing pain. I can feel myself being torn open- being stretched. I bite my lip to help hold in my quiet screams, I don't want to Nate to think I'm a wimp- although he'd probably think they're pleasurable screams when they're anything but!

Nate's lips suddenly stop moving but stay planted on my neck. I can feel his entire body tense beneath my hands and his legs begin to shake slightly.