i have took 4 pills that will make my stomach internal bleed at lest i hope it does but if it does work i will write this for you guys so you will remember me ..
I must end it. There's no hope left. I'll be at peace. i want all of you who read this to know if i do die from this i will be in heaven with my mother i was adopted by before she died and i was readopted, me and my sister were taken from each other and the same for my brother he is 7, my sister is 10, my real dad hit us abused us, my mother was an drug dealer and was a alcoholic, i was token away from my sister when i was 7, right know I'm 14, my sister was 4 or 3 at the time, my brother was 1, and he was adopted my a family who hated him, i got to made one day that i never told any one this yet but i ran off being so sad that i was and took a knife and sliced my chest open with the knee and i have a scare from it it wasn't deep but i took away the pain from being taken away from my family, now that I'm 14 and i know better my new adopted mom says she loves me but i say i love her back... and i don't.. i just lie so i don't make her sad.. my sister was to young to under stand any of this so she loved her new mom but before i was adopted by my sisters mom i was adopted by this lady i loved i lived with her until i was 11.. when she pasted away from cancer..... it broke my heart so bad i cried for 3 days in a row with out eating or drinking anything... i then began cutting myself from all the lost i had.. then i tried to kill myself....... it didn't work... so i hope this works....... i wished i had a normal life.. but what did i get? the worst life someone could ever have... even when i look up my name...(makayla) you will read that it says (The girl who works hard. People criticize her for the things she receives but they don't know how hard she works. She shines all the time and doesn't let others discourage her from what she wants for her life. She is a creature that will always smile even though she has the most reasons to cry. She is the shoulder for weeping friends, and only weeps in the quiet corners of her room so no one will see her. Makayla is strong and trustworthy, loyal to the unloyal. She will brighten your day with her laugh, will soothe your rising fears, and will love you until the days on the earth are no more. Take care of her as she takes care of you.)
"Makayla: the person who smiles the most and yet has the most reasons to cry."
this is what my name means and this is what i do every day... it is true... I'm sorry i will miss you all....
~Makayla...
