Irresistible

Make It Easy

Sasuke's P.O.V

I never expected things to go back to the way they were. I knew Naruto would relapse and I knew he'd try to cover it up. I was prepared for that.

I wasn't prepared to know how my boyfriend was getting his addiction. I would've never thought he'd sell himself, his own body, to another for something as petty as drugs. I thought I knew him better. I thought he was stronger than that.

"So you're serious?" I stare at my brother, wide eyed and hurt. He doesn't say a word, he just nods his head. This is not the way I pictured a reunion with my brother would be. I knew there'd me some punches thrown and more than a few curse words, but I would've never thought I'd have to hear my brother say he'd been sleeping with my partner to supply him with drugs. That's not the sort of thing a person wants to hear.

"How long?"
"About three months."
"Was it always sex..?"
"Sometimes it was just oral, blowjobs and rim jobs."
"Did he enjoy it..?"
"It's sex and he was willing, but no. Not really. He'd tell me he'd never call my name. He said his voice was meant to call someone else's name and not mine."

My heart was shattered. My heart, the heart of Sasuke Uchiha, had finally been broke. Some thought it was impossible, but it seems a blonde haired idiot had succeed in doing what nobody else would've thought about doing.

The door creaking open stopped me from thinking more about my broken heart, but that familiar blonde hair coming into view made that stinging feeling go deeper.

"Sorry I'm later, I was-" Naruto stops his excuse once he sees what's in front of him. He knows I know the truth when he sees Itachi sitting beside me, and my face tells just how hurt I am. I never was one to show emotion. I never cried in front of others, I never showed that I gave a shit, but today- today I gave a shit and I think that shocked even Naruto.

"No more excuses, Naruto." I mutter just glancing at him before I look back down at my lap, seeing him made my heart sting.
"I would've never done those things Naruto had I known you were the man making my little brother so happy." Itachi states, pointing a finger at the blonde.
"You didn't and don't know a damn thing about me Itachi!" I yell jumping from the couch. Maybe I'm overreacting, but him acting as if he knows me is bullshit and I won't stand for it.

My hands reach for the collar of Naruto's shirt.
"I loved you. I loved you, you stupid piece of shit and this is how you treat me?!" I yell at him, my fists pounding into his chest. He doesn't flinch, he doesn't yell back- all he does is close his eyes and take it.

"Fight back! Yell at me! Tell me that the fucking drugs are better than me! Say I never mattered! Make this easy!" By this time the tears are rolling down my cheeks. My voice is hoarse from the screaming and the crying and my fists just won't stop pounding at my boyfriend. I wanted him to hurt just as I did. I wanted him to feel that same stinging pain that was shooting through my chest.

"Sasuke."
Saying my name isn't going to help anything Baka. I'm only going to scream louder.
"Sasuke."
Shut up. Don't say my name like that.
"Sasuke!"

He grabs my hands to stop the beating. He pulls me into his chest, but I just scream into his tear stained shirt.
"I can't make it easy because those things aren't true. The drugs aren't better than you. Your love is better. Making love to you gets me higher than any drug. I'm just weak."
No, I'm the weak one..

I close my eyes. I stop screaming. I just let the tears flow and for once I let myself be the vulnerable one. I can hear his heartbeat. I can feel the wounds on his arms as they're wrapped around me. Im pathetic.

I once told Naruto he was the pathetic one but it's me that's pathetic because this man could rip my heart out and I'd smile just knowing my heart would die in his hands.

"Loving me is hell. I know that. I know you deserve so much better than an idiot who's hanging onto a cliff edge with weights tied to his feet. I'm a mess and it seems so impossible to fix me..but please. Sasuke, don't give up on me."

Baka...I could never give up on you..