Who Are You Really? (Outlawqueen)

Dear journal

Dear daniel

My name is regina, I'm 18 years old and I live in the enchanted forest. I hope my dear journal that I will tell you all my secrets. I don't really have any friends, I love horse riding though and especially the boy who taught me but unfortunately he died because of this snow white!!!!! You wanna know why? Only because she couldn't keep a secret! Of course she had to tell my mother that I loved him... let me explain: our lives are pretty good we are rich , we have everything we want. But for my mother being rich is not enough. She doesn't only want money, she wants a Kingdom, to be the queen, she wants everybody to kneel for her like as she is a godin or something. I hate that but the worst part is that she wants ME to be queen, she wants ME to rule the kingdom and she wants me to have the life she never had. When she had the occasion, she killed snows mother and made sure I would be the new kings wife. when that bitch of a snow white told my mother I was in love with the stable boy she killed him. She ripped his heart out of his chest and crushed it right in front of me. Every time I remember this horrible scene, tears fill my eyes and I can hear my mother's voice in my head saying "love is weakness". I've heard that sentence so many times. Since I was young she would tell me there's no such thing as love. Everybody talks about it but nobody really knows what it actually is. I remember that scene every single day, just seeing daniel fall on the ground right in front of me. I tried to wake him up with a true loves kiss but it didn't work. My mother says that I wasn't really in love with him and that's why it didn't work (which I believe isn't true ) I have a lot of nightmares but my mother doesnt care. Like she has no soul. And due to her I'm now married to this king Leopole that I don't love (I don't even know him except his name). I don't know what happened to my mother in the past that made her like this. Was she born this mean?
That's why I called you daniel, I want to consider you as a friend and not just some kind of simple journal or book. I wanna remember him, the man I loved. And I want you to be special. 
I need to go now I have a bal tonight with king Leopole at his huge castle  (I know he is my husband but he doesn't feel like one) so I need to get dressed now.
Love regina