I was only two years old when I was put up for adoption. all I remember from my parents is that I'm sure they wanted the best for me, but yet I wasn't sure.
I grew up with this burden on my back of never being good enough or feeling loved. Every minute of everyday I had to carry on with the thought that i was put up for adoption. Everyday I had to get up and try to look my best so that people would adopt me. That never happened.
I am eighteen and my adoption center, Ms.
Laura's Adoption, decided to let me go. I was finally considered a full fledged adult and nobody could stop me from leaving.
Ms. Laura walked in to my room and sat down on my bed. I was the only one here who had a room all to myself.
They all decided when I was about 8 they would let me have my own room. I have never even been looked at for adoption. Nobody seemed to care about the lonely girl who has been here, caged her whole life. When ever a new couple walked through those doors I was never even given a chance to show I would be the perfect daughter. Everyone here figured I would stay for a while and when you reached the age of 18 I could leave. Finally start my life.
Ms. Laura gave me the "why do I finally have to let you go" look. I knew what she was going to say, I have been counting down the days for years.
"Jenna?" she said holding back all the sadness.
"Yes Ms. Laura." I perked right up.
"Tomorrow I give you permission to leave. You are now eighteen and can go live out on your own. I think you are a very responsible girl and are strong. But you have to promise me one thing little lady."
"Oh my, yes! Anything! Thank you so much!"
"Calm down Jen, you have to promise me to keep in touch. The minute you get out of here i want you to get yourself a cell phone and a good trustworthy apartment. Do you understand?" she stated clearly.
"Yes I understand completely. Thank you so much! This is the best day of my life!"
"Alright, I will get all of your papers so that you can leave in the morning."
"Thank you so much!"
I was just waiting and waiting to hear those words. You may finally leave. Nobody really knew how much I wanted out, I just kept every emotion I had inside.
