My Story

The First Time

"Katie what's wrong?!" I exclaim over the phone."Your okay it's gonna be alright just calm down and don't hurt yourself."

"I'm sorry Nick but I-"She hangs up.

The first thing that comes to mind is that she is going to end her life, shes never done anything this drastic before, I go to check her Twitter for any signs. I'm blocked and her profiles on private. I've always said if she cut I would start, and I know for a fact she has cut tonight. I get up and grab the razor blade I had stored away for if she ever cut, I put it to my wrist.

"NICHOLAS GET YOUR ASS IN HERE!" I hear my mom scream its usually easy to deal with my mom as I joke to Katie about her but this time there's no one here.

When will I find a girl that won't leave me, every time I get a girl I might actually end up liking she leaves, I might as well go back to being a fuckboy. I think to myself as I walk into my moms room.

"What the fuck is steam charges coming out on my card for!?" She asked with obvious attitude. 

"Sorry." I say.

I walk back to my room, I hear her screaming things in the background but I cannot make out what she is saying. I sit down on my bed and think about it for a second.

Should I really do this because someone left me? I think.

That thought sparked it. Of course I'm going to do it because someone left me. That's a good enough reason. I put the blade to my wrist and pull.