In order to understand crazy, you have to become crazy yourself. At a young age I knew crazy would be a big factor of my life and I don't mean party crazy or something better. I mean actual crazy. Schizophrenia to be exact,but if your into the more blunt form,then yes crazy.
When most children are born they're given to their parents, but that's not how it happened for me. I was given to my aunt with a question
"she can't keep this baby,it's not safe. Are you going to be her legal guardian or... Are you putting her up for adoption?" That's what the doctor told my aunt.
"I'll take responsibilities" she said.
And with that I was sentenced to my hard knock life 🤗😒 I mean I know there are way worse situations than the one I have, but still mine was tragic to me. At a young age I was the one taking care of my mother, not the other way around. I mean I didn't mind it because it's the least I could do since she did give birth to me. But it was hard I mean, wouldn't you rather go to your elementary school fair then stay at home to make sure your mother doesn't go into the middle of the street and start screaming gibberish? I know I would.
It wasn't easy growing up like that even more so in a small town in Texas like crayslake. We're everyone knew almost everything about everyone. My father was a drunk and I barely only saw him once a month, that was when he would drop of the money for me and my mom.
My grandmother used to live with us and help us out but when she passed away we seemed to be in trouble with money and I couldn't afford to buy food or pay bills. So I did something I said I never would... I called my father and asked for a form of child support. The way I see it, it's well deserved. You did after all leave your new born child alone with a mentally unstable lady who was also at the points of paranoia and at risk for depression. Which was also my fault 😔 so my uncles tell me.
That was my life as far as I knew and I didn't think it could get any more complicated, until it did. Now my biggest fear is not the bills but the safety of my own mind, my future children's mind. This madness it doesn't just happen at random. It chooses you and when it does, get ready for the crazy ride it's going to drive you to. But one things for sure, I don't want to be along for the ride.
