My Life Without You [Fiona's Diary\Inject Me Sweetly]

Part 1

Dear, Seb.

Things have happen so fast, since you died. William has grown so fast. Yes, I named him by the place were we first met. He is just like you. He looks like you, he acts like you and more important has a big heart like you had. Baby, today you made one year since you died. It feels horrible not having you here. William may not know much, but I bet he needs a dad too.”

I stopped writing as I felt my heart race and tears come. Slowly I took a deep breath, and continued.

Anyway, Emily and Vincent are both really happy together. Yup, Emily didn’t die. She decided to turn into a Vampire. Maybe you’re actually shocked at that part, but she did. She loves Vivi. I knew she wouldn’t leave him. She loves William; she’s always with him and thinks that he looks like you too. Now, Vivi; He’s kind, sometimes. Maybe it’s because Emily changed him, he doesn’t spend time with William but he carries him and sometimes she plays with him, of course with Emily. Otherwise that baby wouldn’t live by his side. Eh, he sure doesn’t like when he cries. But he tries to be nice. Which I think it’s funny. You know, it’s hard for him.

Stopping, a smile formed on my face. It was true. Everything was changing. Eh, well almost everything.

Uh, let’s say. Em isn’t good with seeing blood now. Uh, Vincent and I help her with it. It’s hard for her, since she’s new with all, the vampire thing. And well, were trying to control her on that part. I remember when we took her out, and she suddenly tried to super speed and, ran into a tree. It was actually amusing. Mostly to Vincent.

A low giggle left my lips, remembering that moment. Vincent even teases her about it. I focused on my writing and stared once again.

Em, hasn’t change at all. She’s still the stubborn girl. That well isn’t scared of vampires since she’s one now. She’s just too weak at blood. She doesn’t know how to use her super speed. She’s now a bit too strong. And well, yeah. Which Vincent teaching her on that stuff, it will be hard mostly to him since he won’t have to call her “weak” or “human”.

You’re parents. They have been really happy with William. They didn’t mind about William being yours. They were actually happy. Which, I didn’t expect. Oh, and about the next king and all that. Well, Vivi...he isn’t going to be the next king. I am. Solomon thinks, it would ruin his relationship with Em. He and you’re mom have the crazy idea that they will stay together forever. Which I think it would be amazing!

This might be hard for me; you know having a child and being the Queen. It’s not what I thought in mind or have planned. I thought being right beside you, having your hugs, hearing your voice, having William with you, you becoming the king and maybe even living together in a house. Our house…

Oh, shut it, Fiona. Don’t cry. Stay strong. It’s been a year. Stay strong, Fiona. I took a deep breath and wrote once again.

I’m sorry, Seb. I know I should just stop crying, Em says that you wouldn’t want me crying. It’s just; it’s hard not to cry about you. I mean, I love you. And I never told you those words after you died. William never saw who his father was, you never heard Vivi, saying he loved you. Em, she has that crazy idea that she was the one who killed you. She takes all the blame to her. Not to Ashton, or Luca. Or even Joel.

Tears stared falling down my cheeks. I stared sobbing. Trying not to, but failed. My mind raced…Joel.

Well, Um, Joel. He’s still in Jail. Obviously and well, Vincent visits him. He actually liked Joel. Even if he betrayed us. Vincent just feels lonely. I think. He’s a good guy when he wants too. I’m still mad at Joel. But, I’m not going to start.

Sighing, I stopped writing and wiped my stain tears. It was true, Joel didn’t have my forgiveness. I was still mad at him; I thought he was actually….like a brother. Scowling, I stopped thinking and stared writing.

Well, my life isn’t a fairytale at all. I never hoped for one. Even if I would, the only thing that I would want is having you by my side. Telling you that I have always loved you, and showing you how to be a great dad. Which I think you would have been a great one.

    You know the other day I went to you’re grave. I saw this cute little girl, saying “I’ll marry you”. Not only do you bring women from you’re charm. Little girls too! I thought it was cute. As you can see everyone misses you and loves you. When you died, it was the worst day of life. How could I have not dated you knowing you were always with me? Until, Em came she actually made me realize that I didn’t care that you turned me into a vampire and that you were my ‘brother’.

That’s were I broke into tears. My pen fell down, and I cried my heart out. It wasn’t easy writing to the love of your life, knowing he will never come back. Slowly, I picked out the pen once again, and wrote.

I always loved you and I always will. William will grow to be a great man like his father and maybe even become the next king. Even if you’re not with me. Even if I meet thousands of guys. You will always be in my heart. I will always remind to our son that you were an amazing father. Okay, I will stop.

Sobbing I continued writing with so much force, since I was too weak to even hold the pen. Tears fell on the paper, but I didn’t care.I stopped. Once again, I took a deep breath and controlled myself. Picking my pen up and continued.

I don’t know were I’m getting to much tears. Anyway, I’ll keep writing to you, even thought you actually won’t read them. It’s just like relief to me, to know that I can still express my feelings over a letter. You may not read this, but you actually can see us from heaven.

I miss you so much, Seb! You have no idea how much. Actually, everyone does.  

I love you. Always know that.

Love, Fiona.

Slowly, I got up, and a forced smile appeared into my face. My heart, my chest, my head, didn’t hurt more. I felt…better. I knew, I still had to continue writing to Seb. I felt different, I felt relief. I had to continue doing this.

 And I will. I promise.

My life isn’t over...

...It’s just staring.

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Inject Me Sweetly is from XxSkater2GirlxX! ;D Yup. This is just like a short story, or not? I don't know.

It's a Fiona's diary. It's her Point Of View! :)

I know. I know! Bad grammar and all that. But I'm not good at it. Hope you guys like it and you too Jordan. I thought it would be fun and all. Even thought I will have some trouble on updating. But I promise I will try! 

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