A Pencil

Hi I'm Josh.

Nice to meet you I'm Josh. I like to write books, mostly keep them to myself though. Playing video games is a hobby of mine. I'm almost always on YouTube. I like to read, not my favorite thing to do but it's up there. I really enjoy to draw. But enough about that. I'm going to tell you my story.

I was born on August 17, 1991. My mother was a nice woman always loved music and such, she was into architecture she built many brick structures. She even had her own company. My dad acted as the accountant he was always into art and just lived everything about art. He painted our old house actually we still have the painting in our garage. I was the oldest of three, I had a younger brother and a younger sister they were twins.
When I was six, and my siblings being four ... My mother had passed away, driving my father partly insane. She had beed visiting her father that was about to pass away.. She was so depressed I was told. She didn't want to drive home alone she had told my father over the phone. My father assured her it would be alright. But was it really alright? No. My mother took a ton of her fathers pills. Killing herself.. Leaving her kids to my father.

From losing the company with her death. We were forced to move out of the house that my parents had built together. I can't really remember much but I know we moved twice. The second time is where we stayed for a while.

That house is were I lived till I started middle school. I don't remember much about those years. But I do remember meeting a guy next door, his name was Jack. Jack and Josh, we were the best of friends. Until recent times but I mean we'll get to it at some point. Then after a few years of just Jack and Josh, it turned into Jack, Josh, Ed, and Sam. We used to play around all the time. 

When I was in kindergarten a girl on my bus would always sit with me and forcefully kiss me. One day I remember having all the other kids sit on me so she didn't know I was there. But she still knew.
I also remember being in kindergarten and I had a really long scarf on and I was going down the stairs at recess and I tripped and fell right on my face into the pebbles on the ground. That is were I met my friend Cody. He was always a cool guy but I kinda forgot about him till middle school I'll get into that later. That's about all I remember from kindergarten. Wait no. I was at Cody's birthday one year and I couldn't swim at that time and I was using those floatie things and I took them off to go in the hottub then I forgot about them and jumped into the pool I can barely remember gasping for air but I do remember everything going black. Then his mom was a lifeguard and she jumped in and got me.

Then I remember first grade barely.. I remember being friends with everyone but looking back on it now I know none of them liked me. Except one girl her name was Penny. I had been over to her house a few times I remember one time that her and I were playing Pokemon on a game system I'd never seen till then. The only Pokemon I remember from that game was Joltion. But anyways that day her and I made a fort outta the couch cushions. We wrestled, I won. Then we went into a fort, I promised that I'd marry her someday. But that's never going to happen. Don't say "no way you asked a girl to marry you at that age!!" But I didn't she asked me, she also asked me how many kids I wanted to have but I really didn't know how it worked at the time but I wanted three I said. Also that day I brought a bag over to her house so we could play our Nintendo's together. I brought all my games and we played. At the time I refused to drink water at other peoples houses. And I had found the condoms at home. Thought they were balloons but I was so so SO wrong u used to put them on my fingers and such. But I had grabbed a condom from the drawer which was a bad place to keep them dad. Anyways that day I had grabbed a condom filled it up with water from the sink and at the time I was bad at tying so I taped it shut. Surprisingly it kept the water inside the condom. Hell that sounds wrong but it's what happened I swear!! Anyways I got the condom out, the small condom, and drank the water out of it. Now I realize how bad that was, none of the condoms were in packages. They were used. I'm shivering thinking about it. She offered me water and I said no I'm good then I drank the water out of the used condom and put it back in the bag. That's the only time I had hung out with penny and it was the last.

I remember nothing about second grade.

But forth grade. Forth grade was the fuckin year man!! But I'll talk about it later.