"Where are you, baby? Pauwi ka na ba? Gusto mo ba sunduin kita?" He asked me worriedly.
I haven't talked to him all day. Hindi ako nagreply sa mga text nya. Hindi ko rin sinasagot ang tawag nya. He should be pissed, but he's worried instead. I don't even have to explain myself. He understands. He always understand the lies I make him believe. He understands that I am busy running Revert Records and managing Callix.
"I'm fine JP. Pauwi na din ako in a while." I answered.
"Are you sure? Baka pagod ka na."
I took a deep breath. Emotionally tired? Yes. But I can't tell him that. He's too good to me.
"No. I'm okay." I tried to cheer up.
"Sige. Let me know when you get home. Ingat ka pauwi. I love you." Malambing nyang sabi.
"I will. Talk to you later." Sagot ko sa kanya at binaba na ang tawag.
Humiga ako ulit sa kama at inayos ang kumot na nakabalot sa katawan ko. Tumagilid ako para matitigan ko yung mga skyscraper. I like this place. I like that this room has a huge window with the view of the city lights. It calms me down. It makes everything seem beautiful. It makes me forget how rotten I am.
"Hinahanap ka na nya?" His sleepy voice asked as his arm snaked around my waist. We were naked under the sheets.
I nodded.
"Tell him you're with me... in bed." He whispered and kissed my ear.
"Hindi nakakatawa, Logan." I said and pushed away his hand that was caressing my tummy.
"Seryoso ako. Tell him, Audrey. Then we wouldn't have to hide here."
"I can't do that. Ayokong saktan si JP." My chest tightened with the thought of telling JP about Logan and me.
He sat up and faced me.
"You don't want to hurt him? Sige, ako na lang mananakit sa kanya." Iritadong sabi ni Logan at kinuha ang cellphone ko sa bedside table.
Tumayo ako agad at hinablot iyon sa kamay nya.
"Don't! Just don't, Logan!"
"Ayaw mo pa rin ba pumili, Audrey?! Sinasabi mo na ayaw mo na syang saktan, pero lagi ka rin naman bumabalik sakin. Anong gusto mong gawin ko?!"
Frustration flashed his eyes. I just shook my head. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot sa kanya.
"Hindi 'yon ganun kadali." I sighed and sat on the bed again.
"And you think THIS is easy? Running back and forth between me and JP? Hiding behind the curtains, when we could be dancing on the dance floor? Hiding in this condo, when we could be holding hands on the street? Mas madali sayo na pag na-bore ka sa relasyon nyo, pupunta ka sakin? At kapag nagkakagulo na tayo, babalik ka na sa kanya? Hangang ngayon hindi pa rin ako enough sayo!"
"Sa tingin mo ba hindi ko gusto na makasama ka?! Na gawin ang lahat ng gusto natin nang hindi nagtatago?! Sa tingin mo ba gusto ko 'tong sitwasyon natin?!"
"Then choose already! Choose me already!" He was yelling. His anger creeped up on me.
"Hindi ko pwede saktan si JP!" I yelled back at him.
He was taken aback. His brows furrowed. He had that questioning look in his eyes.
"Mahal mo sya?" He blurted. "Mahal mo na sya?"
