My Attempt

i run to my room and grab my razor blade, and run and cold bath. I can feel my heart racing and my hands start shaking. As i glide the blade over my vain, i can hear the sound of skin being cut, this is my world, this is the only pain i know how to control. I keep cutting deeper and deeper nothing seems to make the pain of today disapear. I glace around the room to see if i have anything sharper to use, i open the medicine cabnet only to find my mothers sleeping pills. I take the bottle, it wont open. When i finally get it open i take half of the bottle, grab a beer from the fridge and take the pills, i then decided i needed the rest so i ran upstairs and i grabbed the rest. I hear my heart in my ears. Then everything goes dark. I wake up to my mom crying over me while doctors and nurses are pumping my stomach. I dont want to see this anymore. I dont want to be here. Why didnt she just let me die?! Everything is so loud and bright. I hear more sobbes coming from my sister and brother. But wheres Dad? Thats right i remember he said he wouldnt care if i died. Doesnt matter once im out of here, ill do it all over again. Im not giving up. Later that night i passed away. I slipped into a coma, my brain knew what i wanted. Im free now, so dont cry. Ill be here with you always.