hi luvs!! ok, so basically, my friend violet asked me to write about my first love, so here it is, shoutout to u idiot.
—mariah's point of view.
his words. the way he talked. felt like a symphony to my ears.
the way he laughed, made me fall in love even more.
the way he did absolutely anything, made me smile.
he just, was amazing.
I don't know how to describe it, his love, he made me feel,
Wanted.
he was the best thing that ever happened to me.
he was perfect.
he was,
Art.
i cannot simply forget him, or move on from him. It's not that simple.
I cannot simply forgive myself, for letting him go.
Fuck.
I cannot simply find somebody else.
he was a one of a kind, he was unique.
like a painting.
a painting that is so beautiful,
you cannot simply remake it.
you cannot simply copy it.
you will never find somebody as unique as him.
I cannot even do that myself.
Whenever I stared into his eyes, I could see myself.
I could see the galaxy.
I could see everything.
But most importantly, I could see us.
I could see love.
He was my everything.
he still is.
I cannot simply forget him.
he floated, or found his way into my thoughts.
my dreams.
i could never forget him.
I never will.
he makes me happy.
he makes me feel loved.
whenever he talks, or simply says hello,
I swear, I'm floating on cloud nine.
air of lust, and hearts and gooey shit.
he makes me feel the type of shit I thought was only in movies.
Fuck.
I'm not into the gooey bullshit, but at the same time, I am.
but only with him.
he was unique.
And I will never, ever,
forget him.
fuck,
Im in love.
