Thoughts Of Life

Future

Remembering my past makes me realize what if those things never happened, what would be my life in the future? To continue? Maybe I can say "yeah, right your still human" but what if mom didn't tell me to go to my room is it possible that I'm with my parents right now. Of course...

"Gabrielle Nic, are you okay? Hey Gab?" And i was back to my senses.

"Uh-yeah, why? Oh!! About the cupcakes! I'm sorry. I can't face it this time, its been a tiring and busy day after all. And you see I'm a working student! Sorry again Paul."

"Really? That's a big opportunity for your business future. Haha. So, maybe next time then?"

"Uhm. Sure just let me know so i can settle our schedule, thanks a lot Paul." Then he bid his Goodbye..

I know and yeah! I'm a certified college student! As I'm facing my senior year, I'm terrified *sigh* years have passed and the tragedy that happened between my family is still fresh...

What would be my future? If things didn't turn the way it was in the past... Yeah I'm missing them so much it hurts, my mom and dad are the only family I have...

Life is really unfair, life is all about problems and solutions, life life life I don't know what life is! All I know is that I'm tired dealing with it I'm tired of their bulls!

A vendor crossed my way, a person holding a bunch of balloons, A family chatting happily with each other, A new born baby with her lovely parents... How I wish to be with my love ones,laughing so hard with our inside jokes, making a bundle of memories to cherish on, swaying our hands in the air, dancing freely with them, but its the total contratry of my imaginations..
I'm standing in front of the church, scared to get in, I don't know I just can't help it. But this time I need someone who can explain to me what life really is, someone who can judge my past, someone who can guide me to my future. God.