Journal

Day 1

Oh my god, I can't explain how perfect he is.. <3 Every second I see him I just feel so happy inside. His voice makes me crazy and his eyes melt me like a popsicle. Yes you can say I'm "Fan girling" But I really don't think so. When we spend time together everything just seems right. Like nothing could go wrong. Have you ever felt this way? 

The first time I invited him over to my house I was super nervous, even though we have had past relationships, he had never been to my house before. Well, he had but not inside. He came over at like 11:30pm because that was when he got off work. Pacing back and forth worried I might do or say something stupid. I needed to chill. 

I see him walking down the sidewalk towards my house. I go downstairs and let him in. My heart is beating a hundred miles per hour. My bedroom is a bathroom, don't judge me lol. He walked in and just sat on my bed. I turned the movie Zombieland on and we sat in silence for a while. He wasn't very okay with this at first since my mom was his boss.

He is so cute I though. Just sitting next to him gave me the butterflies.  I laid down on my bed just because sitting was uncomfortable, He just looked at me and said "Well I suppose we could lay down now," and he just smiled at me.

He jumped over me on my bed and laid behind me. This made me feel really good about myself. This guy who I've been crushing on forever really wants to spend time with me. 

We just laid there and watched the movie, it felt like a real relationship. Even though we really weren't together it felt that way. Minutes later one thing led to another we were making love. I know what your thinking. You slut. But guys this isn't the first time I've been in a relationship with him. Nor is it the first time we have done it. It felt amazing like it was meant to be. 

After he held me in his arms for hours and we just slept. I woke up around 3am and figured he better go before my mom would get up. I didn't want him to leave and neither did he. It's winter and the walk across towns gonna be cold.  He was sitting on my bed I stood up and he grabbed me and hugged me tight, I thought we might fall back on the bed and fall asleep but no. He stood up and we walked down the stairs and after he put his shoes on we hugged again. I really was happy with life.