Journal

Day 3

I woke up showered and got ready for school still happy and full of life because he hasn't stopped talking to me, which made me feel special. I got to school and there he was. Our eyes met and it felt like time stopped. He smiled and everything seemed right. I go through the say and I see him everywhere I just can't stop thinking about him. 

I had to go to work.. :/ it wasn't that bad though. It felt like it was wayy to long of a day though. I finally got home and jumped in the shower. My mom yelled at me for putting some Shinedown lyrics on Facebook because people think I'm trying to commit suicide. I started crying. Emotions just keep flowing through me and I feel like shit. 

A few hours later he messaged me <3 He instantly made me feel better. He asked if he could come over and obviously I said yes. Someone had to make me feel better. 

It was a repeat of the other night. Movies, cuddle, sex and sleep. I never wanted him to leave. But today was different, He was eager to leave like something was wrong. He left and gave me a quick hug. Something told me this was bad. 

He went home 2 1/2 hours earlier than last time. When I looked at his phone he got all weird like he was hiding something. We had a great time. Wow is that guy silly <3 But I'm sure it's nothing/

He left his headphones at my house. So I told him and I said he could grab them next time he came over. He was like next time? This is bad. I got confused. I'm 19 he said I could go to prison.

Wow all this again. I told him it'd be okay and i went to bed.