/ feelings. / y.kh

O9.

kihyun pov

"I've told you to not skipping the medicine!"

I- I'm sorry, mom...

"Oh God... why it has to be like this?"

I can hear my mom kept shouting in frustration. I feel bad for her.

Yes, it's my fault. I was supposed to take my medicine this morningㅡit's a must, you know. And now, I know how does it feel if I don't take it. It's painful.

I couldn't open my eyes because I'm too weak for just doing thatㅡand also I'm too lazy. I just want to sleep, I'm too tired. 

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door and I heard my mom greeted someone, which is a nurse. She walked in and greeted my mom back, before she explained all the problems in my head.

"So... Kihyun-ssi, Mrs. Yoo, the doctor has told me everything. So, I'm gonna tell you again here," the nurse paused a while to take a look what was written on the paper she brought with.

"First, you have severe disease, Kihyun-ssi. So, please understand why you have to take your medicine everyday. And, I'm sorry, but your disease has relapse, you'll be operated soon." the nurse explained finally.

I let out a sigh as I rubbed my templeㅡthe pain is increasing right now. You're such a dumb, Kihyun. Why did you hurt yourself?!

I opened my eyes slowly, just to see my mom and the nurse left the room. And the door opened again to bring Minhyuk and Dayoung into the room. I frowned a bit, why is Dayoung always there with Minhyuk?

"Yah, you silly." Minhyuk broke the silence suddenly. He walked up to me and threw his palm onto my side of face, making a red mark on it.

"Do you want to die sooner or what?!" he yelled as he grabbed my collar. I just stayed silent and rubbed my cheek slowly, tasting how more painful it is. I don't, dude.

"Lee Minhyuk! Behave!" Dayoung pulled Minhyuk by his backpack and shot a glare to him. Minhyuk sighed as he threw his head to the back with his palm covering his eyes.

"I never had this kind of dumb friend." he said. "I swear."

"Well, now you have." I mumbled, replying him.

"Listen, Yoo Kihyun. If you die today or maybe soon, I promised to myself to not attend your funeral or other things about your death."

"And you're going to break your own promise."

"Dammit, I'm serious!! Kihyun don't you dare to die!!"

Minhyuk walked again and hugged me like a kid, while sobbing. I laughed a bit and patted his back like a mother, while I saw Dayoung was about to cry too.

Dayoung snorted a bit and let out a small smile when her eyes met mine. I mouthed to her, "it's gonna be okay". She nodded and kept looking at me and Minhyuk. I knew she wants to hug me too, but Minhyuk was still on top of me. She was kind of shy.

Minhyuk has bee the closest one with me, and the other boys. I understood why he always act like this. Same as Dayoung, along with Seolha, whom I missed right now. And I will still miss her.

I like her, remember? 

The door suddenly opened again and now the nurse and my mom came backㅡoh no, couple of nurses. The three of us turned our direction to the door and quickly take a position.

"The doctor has arrived, Kihyun-ah." my mom said, she still looked worry just like earlier.

I nodded a bit while the nurse dragged me to the wheel chair, and sat on it. The other nurse managed some paperworks. And soon, we arrived in front of the surgery room.

My heart kept beating so hard, even my eyes were shaking. I'm nervous, I really am. This is my first time to experience this kind of thing, because I've been hating the hospital the most. But I had no choice.

"Are you nervous, kid?" I felt a tap on my shoulder and making me turn to my left. Dayoung smiled nervously, but she tried to be calm. "Don't be." she said again. I nodded as response.

"Hey, Dayoung," I called her. Dayoung raised her eyebrows. "Do you like Minhyuk?"

Dayoung's cheeks were become red all of sudden. "What.." She bit her lower lip in embarrassment.

"I... is it obvious...?"

Oh my god. I chuckled at her response and patted her arm lightly. "You should confess soon. Or you'll regret it."

"I'm not sure if he has a same feelings to me..."

"Then, you're at the same position as I am."

"Really? Who do you like?"

It's... Kang Seolha.

"It's privacy... I guess." I rubbed my back of neck nervously. I lied, because only the boys who knew about this. I saw Dayoung just nodding her head.

"Privacy, huh?" she said in playful tone. She chuckled.

"Good luck then, Dayoung."

After praying, I'm getting ready to enter the surgery room. The nurse pushed my wheel chair into the room, and I took a chance to look at the back.

She's still not here, even though Minhyuk said she will be here.

Well, she is not here though. But, she will.

"YOO KIHYUN!"

As soon as I entered the room, I heard a familiar voice behind me. I was about to look at the back again but the door has closed, and the red lamp turned on.  

"Please..."

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this chapter is shorter than before bcs i made it just for kihyun's part~ hehe this month will be a busy month;;; i'll try to take my time and write the next chapter! 

song recommend > 4minute's act.7 album! the songs are good!