Call Me Daddy, C.R

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Stella's POV

It's been three days since I left Chandlers house and I haven't gone to school.

I sat in my bed just wondering about him and all the events that have led up to me knowing Chandler and who exactly is he and how am I associated with him.

He's insane for starters stalking me and holding against my will with the sex tape.

He then realises my brother is abusing me and claims he killed him and now I live on my own with no one.

Then rescaling that he wants to give love a try and cheats on me with a girl that night.

Then him begging for my forgiveness and asking me out, to give us a chance since he's never had a real and true relationship, being all loving and sweet.

Then I found out in his own home that he's involved in gangs and murder and not only innocent lives, but he was even included I'm my parents murder. All for what money?

But then we go out in public and he's always horny and temperamental.

He treats me like a little doll that he can toy around with and practically abuse.

Then he approaches me at school and seeks mercy and when I give it to him he cheats yet again and doesn't even have remorse or guilt.

Chandler Riggs is a player, dangerous out of control manipulating, sickly disturbed boy who needs to get his shit together.

He sees life as a game and he makes and chooses the rules and acts like no one can defeat him.

What are his plans for the future is he going to keep this intoxicated bullshit up for the rest of his life?

With all the secrets he has its a wonder he even makes time for school why does he even bother?

And his money he has plenty of it to go around why is he even killing when his parents are rich on their own giving the son cars and money and his own apartment which he hasn't been in a couple days...?

I sit here and wonder about the boy who I gave something too, and he just plays with it. Why do I give myself to him like some cheap, dick deprived whore?

Is it because he means something to me , as much as I want to say leaving Chandler was right I still want him by my side. For him to hold me and kiss me and reassure me everything will be alright but I can't have that because the way Chandler was doing it was wrong and rushed and all for the wring reasons ... let's face it as much as Chandler was claiming to use me I was using him just as much.

I could have controlled him and but a stop to his madness but I didn't. Instead I played along and pushed my feelings and thoughts to the side what am I even doing?!

I'm sleeping with a person who killed my brother and was involved in my parents death and threatened me to be his SEX SLAVE! Wake up Stella you don't know the first thing about Chandler because every time you try it is never answered or he blows up and by the end you to make up by sewing one another and confuse lust for love!

NO!

I will not continue with life like this , how long was it going to last anyway? Let a face it Chandler would eventually grow bored of our sex of our "relationship" soon enough and I'm a senior and I have dreams and goals and that will not be taken away from me by HIM. FUCK NO.

I've had enough this was even suppose to go on this long and the fact that I allowed myself to actually fool myself into it to be honest I guess I was just scared of what was actually on the tape that I didn't want anyone to see.