A dancing dream

The dark stage

I have recently gone trough this dark age. I listened to scremo and still do... It's my favorite style of music but I still like Justin Bieber and One Direction and stuff I just happen to listen to scremo more. My favorite bands are Black Veil Brides and Motionless In White.

I used to cut and I still have razors but I haven't used them for like a couple of weeks. I only have 10 tiny cuts on my wrist and the have a abed over and I have like 4 scars and 1 scab on my upper thigh. Whenever I get the urge to cut I dance. I wanted to cut my hair to look like a scene but I want aloud. I decided that when I get a boyfriend I am going to give him my razors so he can throw them away.

I kinda get teased now and then at school and I have a really great family (not the sarcasm). My mum doesn't trust me and baby's me and makes me do everything. My dad doesn't really care about me and my little brother and sister are so annoying at times. My sister is the worst sometime I wanna rip her head off. Me and my brother get along when he isn't tired. When he is tired he calls me a fatty... I am though.

I am over weight. I weigh so much and I tried starving myself... It lasted 2 days. I can't give up food. I am cutting it down though. I wanna go back to dancing because I was a bit skinnier then but I was born with something wrong with my stomach and the made it funny, so it is demonted. I am very self conscious over it.

I like to dance in my time and I am in the dance extension program at my school. I am with Emily and Maria so it's pretty cool. We are going to Yo Fest in a couple of weeks. It's a dance competition and the other fuckers are going to burn!!!!!! We are going to win!!!!

We are also doing a flash mob... I'm so excited for that.