Another shot at love

Lowkey crushing

(Ps what's Lila is wearing in the story is what in the picture)
(Lila pov)

"So you decided to go a bar"I say while Jonathan open the car door for me.
"Yeah it's easier for me to talk in a bar"he says laughing.
"That's interesting"I say giving him a sweet smile.He grabbed my hand and we headed into the bar. I got a little heart attack when he grabbed my hand. But I brushed it off.
When we walked in and we instantly got all eyes on us. I felt awkward so I squeezed Jonathan hand. He gave me a little head nod to tell me it's okay. We walked to the bars counter. Jonathan finally let go of my hand as we sat on the bar stool.
"I'm sorry Renee bothered you about the situation"Jonathan says with a sympathetic look
"No it's cool if I were dating someone that stayed over someone who I really don't know like that. I would have confronted them too."I said
"I guess,how come you're single"Jonathan asked
"I had my heart broken to many times in my 24 years of living"I say looking away from Jonathan.
Jonathan grabbed my chin so I could look at him.
"Hey eventually you will found the person who was worth all the heart break"Jonathan says rubbing my cheek.
"So is Renee worth all the heart break"I ask putting my hand over Jonathan's hand that's on my cheek.
"I don't know .... Yet" Jonathan says
"How long have y'all been dating"I ask
"Just about a year"he says. He finally took his hand off my cheek since my hand was over his, we ended up holding hands again. I couldn't help but to feel butterflies when he touches me. "So are you excited for the divas revolution"he asked.
"Hell yeah"I say so much enthusiasm
"What would you like to drink"the bartender asked
"Vodka"I say
"The usual as always Thomas"Jonathan says
"Of course Jon"says the bartender or Thomas I guess.
"How are you and Marie"Jonathan asked
"Good you and Renee"Thomas asked while nodding over to me trying to subtlety ask Jonathan who am I.
"We're okay and this is Lila the one I told you about"Jonathan says nonchalantly
Wait did Jonathan just say  "this is Lila the one I told you about". Does that mean he talks to about me . I mean Joe and Colby told me about that but I thought they were just joking.
"Oh the one you were slightly crushing on"Thomas says
"Your crushing on me Ambrose"I say teasingly
"Well with that outfit hell yeah"he says bluntly
I blushed so I turned away from him. I didn't want him to catch me blushing.
"I'll be right back with your drinks"Thomas says
"Were you blushing a few seconds ago"  Jonathan asked
" Maybe maybe not"I say while Thomas gave us our drinks and left to attend other customers
I realized that me and Jonathan were  still holding hands. So I slowly removed my hand from his hand.
Jon watched me as I did this with disappointment in his eyes.
Why was he disappointed?
"So what's with all the tattoos"Jon asked
"Well it's kinda like a expression of me"
"Well that's a lot of expressions"he jokes
I cracked a smile.

So I explained some of  my tattoos to Jonathan.
He seemed interested into the story's of my tattoos. We left the bar and we went back to the hotel because tomorrow The main roster have to go on the road. That's gonna be me and Sasha and Becky soon.
"Do you want me to walk to your hotel room"Jon asked.
"Nah I'm good" I say.
"Hopefully I'll see you soon"he says while hugging me.
I buried my head into his neck.
"You'll see me soon Jon Jon"I say.
"Jon Jon really"he says letting me go.
"Yep"I say.Jonathan puts his middle finger up while walking away. Then I was just left there standing in a empty hotel lobby. I decided to call Paige
(Phone call)
Paigeypoo😘- Hey bitch
Lila- Hey Casper
Paigeypoo😘-I hate you so much
Lila- No you don't. You love me
Paigeypoo😘-Sadly I do love you. So why are you calling me.
Lila-I wanted to hang out with you before you leave.
Paigeypoo 😘- Lila is 10:09 at night
Lila-okay and???
Paigeypoo😘- I got places to be by 6 am you bimbo
Lila- fine you unfriendly ghost
Paigeypoo😘-love ya
Lila-love you or whatever
(End of phone convo)
So I decided to go up to my hotel room. Only to see Jonathan standing at my door.
"What are you doing Jon"I asked
"I honestly don't know I just wanted to see you"Jonathan says
"Jon you just saw me 5 minutes ago" I say confused
"I know I just felt like doing one thing"He says
"Do whaaaa"I got cut off with Jonathan kissing me. I ended up kissing him back. I don't know why he was kissing me. But I sure as hell wasn't stopping him. Both of his hands reached down and grabbed my ass roughly. I put my left hand through his hair and I put my other on his neck. Jonathan slid his tongue in my mouth. I moaned slightly.Then I realized something. I pushed Jonathan off of me.
"Renee,we can't do this to Renee"I say slightly out of breath.
"Yeah you're right"Jonathan says also out of breath.Then he pecks my lips and he left. I was just left there confused and vulnerable. I touch my lips because I still felt Jon lips on mine. Does this mean anything I mean he's leaving tomorrow. I'm so confused do I tell anyone about this or. I just don't know what do or what to think. How do I feel about him kissing me.How does he feel about me.