This smile burns my face
As I try to keep it in place.
Just trying to belong
Why does it feel so wrong?
You tell me to smile
I hear it every day.
But how could a lie
make my life be ok?
This is all a lie, It isn't real
It hurts to think, it hurts to feel.
They smile and laugh
As I feel my heart die.
How can they not hear
My piercing screams fill the sky?
I'm told "keep your head up"
It's not that bad, it's a choice.
Although I'm shouting
"that's a lie!"
At the top of my voice.
Your lives are all perfect
So why would you care?
When you start to cry
There's somebody there.
I feel so alone,
I'm in pain every day.
This darkness inside me,
Won't go away.
I say "I'm just tired,
I didn't sleep well today."
But that's just something
I tell you
To make you think I'm ok.
I cry out in fear,
but you don't hear a sound.
There's no one to catch me
As I fall to the ground.
In anger I tell you". "I'm fine. Go away."
But what you don't understand
Is that I'm begging you to stay.
In my mind I'm screaming.
"Don't leave me, I'll die!"
But outwardly,
all I can say is goodbye.
