Song of the chapter: Irreplaceable by Madilyn Paige (but don't play till the lyrics come up)
「Loren's pov」
I felt really bad for Shawn. I picked up my iPhone6s and saw the same thing I see everyday since the 8th grade. I huffed and sat my phone down going into me and Jake's Recording room. I always wear my glasses so No one will know it's me and the only ones who know I'm Jake's brother in His friends, people who don't know me and the guys who bully me.
We were bestfriends till 7th grade. Idk why the rest of the boys hate me but I know why Hayes does. He needs to get over himself.
I took our camera and sat it down a little bit away from our piano so the could see me, and the piano. I played with the adjustable lights so it was simply and I cut on the fairy light that were scattered around the ceiling rail. Then I started playing and singing Irreplaceable by Madilyn Paige.
Can you, see me, over here
Should I just disappear?
I tried to fit in next to you
Guess I wasn't clear
Or maybe I'm just not good enough
Feel so alone here
Can't even be myself
Tryin' to fit in
Left all I am on the shelf
Do I belong here?
Or should I just stop trying
To be some other girl
When I find I'm all alone
Gotta tell myself
I'm irreplaceable
Bending backwards
Tryin' to be someone else
I tell myself
I'm irreplaceable
(Oh oh oh)
Somehow I find a way
It's never easy
Why is it so hard?
All I've ever wanted
Is to be like them
I don't understand
Why I am who I am
When I find I'm all alone
Gotta tell myself
I'm irreplaceable
Bending backwards
Tryin' to be someone else
Still myself
I'm irreplaceable
(Oh oh oh)
I've got to keep my head up
Be the girl I'm meant to me
I may not be like them but
That's okay, I can only be me!
When I find I'm all alone
Gotta tell myself
I'm irreplaceable
Bending backwards
Tryin' to be someone else
I tell myself
I'm irreplaceable
I stopped and pressed stop on the remote to my camera. I was looking down at the keys and whispered 'I'm Irreplaceable'. Then I heard clapping. My head flicked towards the door as I saw Jake.
" Loren that was amazing." he said. I smiled. He stopped clapping but I could still heard clapping. I was confused. Jake moved and someone walked in.
" Hey Loren." she said. My eyes went wide and so did my smile.
" Rebecca." i said and ran to her. She hugged me. Me and Rebecca have been best friends since we were 2. She has been at a school Camp for art. She has Pretty hair its a light red then pink, purple, and a pinch of a blue jean color hair and brown eyes. When she has black eyeliner and mascara on her eyes look black. But both of our eyes change color.
" Oh my gosh. Becca I missed u." I said. She smiled and we pulled away.
" I did too. And I'm staying the Camp got burned down. I'm back home Sis." she said. A tears slipped from my eye. I have to tell her.
" We... Um gotta talk." I said and grabbed the Chip from the Camera and her taking them to my room. I shut the door and we sat down.
" Tell me what's wrong." she told me. I burst into tears.
" I've been through so much while u were gone." she does know about the beatings and stuff. She left 4 months ago.
" Hold on." she said walking to the door. She count to three with her fingers then hit the door.
" Ah." I heard Jake groan. I smiled.
" Stay out of the buisness." Becca said. I heard his door close and she sat down.
" Is its The boys?" she asked i nodded.
" You need to get a makeover. Build Confidence and show the boys who's boss." she told me.
" I did today. It felt good to get it out and talk one of them off in front of everyone." I said smiling.
" Tomorrow after school your getting a makeover." she told me I nodded and we played down watching Scream Queens and Teen Wolf. Jake bought us a box of pizza so yeah.
" I should get the last piece because I'm older." I said. She scoffed.
" Yeah by a month." she said.
" Yeah a 26 day difference." I said.
" Ok let's play rock paper scissors." she said. I nodded.
" Rock paper scissors-" she took the pizza and ran. I always fall for it. I'm to fat to run after her so I went to Jake's room.
" Awl Jackey's lonely." I said. He stuck his tongue out at me. I went up to his box of pizza. He had 3 left. I took the smallest one because if I take the big one, I'll just get fatter and more people will talk about even more. I went back to my room and saw Becca knocked out. I turned the light off and the TV then laid next to her and soon sleep took over me.
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I woke up to my alarm and got dressed into a 1975 long muscle tank, black leggings my black and my pink Adidas. Also I put on a black bandanna and put my beats around my neck. My hair was straight. I quickly painted my nails white.
I walked out and saw Rebecca in a White blouse with a gold neckline, leggings, High tops her mom designed her moms name was Jesselyn she named the brand after Rebecca but just her first name, he nails were red and she her eyes were blue which also means she has no happy and or ready.
" You coming to school with us?" I asked she nodded and looked at me.
" Oh. Can I do your makeup please?" she begged.
" I don't really like Makeup." I said to her.
" Oh come on." she said. I gave her a look and she gave it back.
" Ugh. Fine." I said. She gave me a smokey eye. It was really pretty
" Wow you are good at this." i said. She smiled and we grabbed our bags and phone then waited for Jake and went to Starbucks.
*Starbucks*
We got in line and I got a Vanilla Bean Frappe. Jake got the Passionate fruit lemonade tea and Becca got a Cotton Candy Frappe. As we turned to go our table I saw the guys at the same table as yesterday. Hayes glanced at me the looked down. He looked back at me and his mouth opened. The boys saw him and looked at me. Their mouths hung open to. I walked over to their table.
" Close you mouths boys. You'll catch flies." I said closing Nash's mouth. He was there today too. They looked shocked.
" Where've you been best Friend?" I asked Nash.
" I-Ive been sleeping in." he said. I smirked.
" Bad Boy on the loose." I said. He smiled and I left. We sat down and drank our drinks
