Beautiful Nightmares

My death

Bathing in my blood
Pain engulfing my body
My reason to live is this moment:
My death
Contradicting isn't it?
I don't want to bathe in my blood
I want to bathe in my own victory:
My death
Pain engulfing my body
I strive for death
Take me away
I want to relocate to the place of fragile souls
I want to let go of everything
Including my own life
My death is something I want. No. It's something I need.
All my muscles expand
All my pain is getting worse
Life slowly leaves my body
My soul slowly climbs away
And then my muscles contract
My body is laying in a bath of my blood
No soul
No life
No love
No girl
No boy
Could have helped me
My death was meant to be
I needed it
And my death was needed by others
My death
It saved me
And others around me