Twisted

Letters....

Three months later.... we became closer. Each time it felt great being at his side even though we were not even serious yet...

Today I woke up feeling that something good was going to happen. And actually... It happened. And it was a miracle.

Today Devin asked me out, but not without help of his friend . He had to tell me that Devin wanted to date me. At the end I said yes, but at the same time I was asking myself if I was stupid because of course I knew what kind of guy he was, and of course I knew myself. I always got jealous each time I saw him with another girl. The good thing was, no one could tell I was jealous.

The next day I decide to make a letter to him saying these exact words:

Devin:

This is kind of difficult for me because you are my first boyfriend and I don't know how to act or what do when I'm around you. I want to be honest with you, and the truth is that I think I'm falling in love with you, but at the same time I'm scared because I don't want to get hurt, and sometimes I don't know what's going on in your head .Please don't break my heart..
Alexa.

Alexa:
There are million reasons to feel for you the way I do, you make me laugh, you are hotter than anyone I know, you are smart and silly . I can't stop thinking about you; no matter how hard I try. And of course ,your hugs give me a warmth like no other, but lastly, you are my girlfriend and no one can't take you from me.
Devin.

After he wrote that letter I began to trust him more . He had changed this day. Thanks to him I learned what is it like feel to feel love, and I realized I wanted to be with him no matter what. Man, I just hope he doesn't screw up .I don't want things to finish, and least not badly.

It was already nighttime when I checked my phone.

Hey wanna come over tomorrow afternoon?

Yea sure ...

Ok cool. Good night beautiful.

Good night.

The next day I was so excited; I just wanted to get through the whole day day until the afternoon.

The day was so long, but I finally got home from school. Devin came to pick me up, and we walked to his house. When we got over there,we sat in the couch and we started feeling uncomfortable so we went to his room instead. Immediately he took his shirt off. We lay in his bed and he stared kissing me and touching me. After a while,he told me this:

"Hey,baby,you should take your shirt off.

"What do you mean?"

"Well... I'm not wearing a shirt.... I don't think you need this one..."

At the beginning I was scared; not just because what could happen after, I was actually scared because I didn't like my body at all. I was scared that he wouldn't like me after he saw me in the nude.

After I took my clothes off, he looked at me and he told me I was beautiful. I was relieved because I didn't feel shy with him anymore and I felt secure with him. But I still wasn't sure of having sex with him.