Tainted in Despair

No one cares

Why should you try

Maybe you should just give up

What's the point anyway

I stared at my wrists, watching the beautiful red liquid drip down onto the dirty floor. It didn't even hurt, nothing hurts anymore. Everything's just empty inside....

Yes, why should it matter

Its just going to cause you more pain

Yeah, more suffering

Just end it all and be done with it

Another cut. A little deeper than the others. I hissed as I felt the slight sting. Gingerly holding my wrist, I limped towards the bathroom. Grabbing my medicial kit, I began to treat my cuts. As I wiped away the access blood, I couldn't help but stare as it swirled down the drain in the bathroom sink. I looked at my reflection in my cracked mirror. I looked like shit. Dark bags under my eyes, very pale, unhealthy skin, dull, stormy gray colored eyes.....

I sighed tiredly and leaned against the sink for support. As I drifted into my thoughts, a knock on my door makes me stumble and almost fall

Don't answer it

They'll just be concerned

Hide it all inside, don't let them see your weak side

"Aysu?" A familiar voice rang out. "Are you home?" I jolted in surprise. I tiptoed to my bedroom closet, making sure that I had made no noise

'..its Amy...'

Amy? Ha, she's just another one of them

Yeah, don't let her get to you

That's right, we're your only friends, Aysu

"...I guess she's not home..I'll stop by again later," Amy muttered to herself. I waited a few minutes after she left before I decided to come out of my hiding place again. I decided to get some clothes on and headed out of my safety bubble, glad that the disguise doesn't make me stand out too much.

'....my only friends, huh?' I chuckled dryly, wandering the streets aimlessly in random directions. As I was walking, I passed by my school. Its a school day, and I saw some students gathered in a familiar spot in the courtyard.

"....Amy, Daisy, and Hinata..."

Tears leaked in the corner of my eyes, threatening to fall. I turned around sharply and headed home quickly, feeling familiar eyes burning into the back of my skull. As I was walking home, I passed by a familiar alley, dark voices calling out to me

Hey, its you again, Aysu

Yes, come and join us, Aysu, it'll be fun