My Thoughts

Sleepless Nights.

I didn't sleep last night.

My mind was too busy replaying the things that you said.

You were on my mind so much.

Tears started cascading down my face, in a desperate attempt to reach my mouth, and shut it.

Because I kept talking about you.

I went on and on about how much you mean to me.

But how many other girls have told you the same thing?

That's when I felt the tear in my heart,

and I just laid down and cried.

They're prettier.

Funnier.

Nicer.

I'm just a worthless mouth screaming out your name.

But you never hear me.

I am sentences left unfinished.

And words dazed by empty thoughts.

I am unimportant.

I am mostly unimportant to you, so I tried to get you off my mind.

I punched my mouth, to stop it from playing your name on repeat.

I pulled my hair, and banged my head to get the thought of you out of my mind.

But it didn't work.

Nothing works.

I want to get you out of my thoughts, but you just don't leave.

I wish it was you leaving these kisses on my cheeks, instead of my stupid tears.

(This is just something I wrote that was relatable to me.)

Always Smile,

-Lexi Espinosa