My Destiny

Day one

Jake...

I met Jake at school on my first day back. Hes beautiful.. Hes the most beautiful person ive ever met, Its now 5 months after i started and Jake and I have become closer, Im falling for jake day by day. He doesnt know I have cancer and i cant tell him. Im telling him today...

I picked up my phone and texted him.

"Jake.. Can you come over please, I have something to tell you.."

I sat on my bed anxiously waiting for his reply.

*Ding* my phone sounded that i had a text message.

"Yeah no problem, baby. Ill be there in 5."

As i waited for him, a million things ran through my mind.

What if he leaves me..

What if he hates me because I kept it from him for so long.

Time flew and he was here. He came up to my room and sat next to me on my bed..

"Whats wrong, love..? Are you okay.."

no

"Jake.. I dont know how to say this... but i have stage three chronic Lymphomatic Leukemia."

I started crying..

He just sat there and stared at the wall. I heard him crying and i hugged him.

"Im so sorry Jake. Im so sorry i didnt tell you sooner. I was just scared..

I layed down on my bed and curled myself up and let myself cry. A minute later i felt Jake wrap his arms around me..

(Play song) I started quietly singing

Well do it all

everything

on our own

we dont need

anything

or anyone

If i lay here

If i just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world..

*He started singing with me.*

I dont quite know

how to say

how i feel

Those three words

are said too much..

but not enough..

If i lay here

If i just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world.

"Im sorry Jake.. I really am.. I just didnt want to worry you.. I dont have long left.. Maybe a year and a half or two.."

Forget what were told

before we get too old

show me a garden

thats burstin into life

"Its okay babygirl.."

Lets waste time

chasing cars

around our heads

I need your grace.

"Love me.. "

to remind me

to find my own

If i lay here

If i just lay here

"Are you sure...?" He asks

Would you lie with me and just forget the world..

"Im sure.." I said and kissed him

Before we get too old

Show me a garden thats bursting into life

All that i am

All that i ever was.

Is here inyour perfect eyes

Theyre all i can see

I dont know where

confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

IF i lay here

If i just lay here.

Would you lie with me and just forget the world..

"I love you" we said in unison

And that night.. I lost my virginity to my boyfriend..