Waiting For A MIRACLE..

The Worst Memories!

"Sometimes crying is the only way your eyes speak when your words can't explain what the heart feels"

"Hey Fawad, wassup, when are you coming home? It's Saturday you said we will be going somewhere..remember??", Zaara spoke to Fawad over the phone.

"Zaara....yes....I remembered it....Ummm...one sec...", Fawad kept his phone and spoke over his landline, "Sana please can you ask Uzair to bring yesterday's file immediately I need to see it before I talk to the boss"

"Zaara...I'm busy right now...I will call you..umm..after 20 mins", Fawad said and was about to hang up when Zaara suddenly spoke up, "Ok..but don't forget to perform your Zuhr salah".

"Zaara..I'm not a kid, I will do it don't poke me always please..", Fawad hung up.

Time went by but neither Fawad called her nor he came home as promised to her.. He came around 10 PM.

"Zaara.... Zaaraaa...Where are you?", Fawad shouted as he entered their room.

"I'm in the washroom...I'm coming..", Zaara was crying all the time and had gone to the washroom to fix her up before Fawad comes.

"Where were you girl?... I'm damn tired.", Fawad asked her and was about to hug her when she moved back and replied to him without looking into his eyes, "I was ummm..I will get coffee for you".

"Zaara...look at me..", Fawad held her hand as she was about to leave and turned her around to look into her eyes. "What happened? Why are you behaving so strange...wait...were you crying?", Fawad asked her with frustration.

"No.. it's not like that...I was not...", Zaara was speaking when Fawad Cut her.., "Don't tell me you were crying just because I could not come early", Fawad huffed moving his hand through his hair.

"No...I was not crying because of that reason..", Zaara whispered

"Then why were you crying?.. Do you have any idea what I go through every day.. I work for my boss but he has no sympathy let alone he will leave me early. His constant nagging irritates me and when I come home I see my wife crying because I could not come home early", Fawad yelled at her.

"Fawad...I didn't cry... I...", Zaara was on the verge of tears.

Fawad slightly pushed her when she tried to hold his hand and asked her to leave him alone and he stormed out of their room.

Zaara couldn't control herself and broke down and let all those tears pass which she was holding for so long.

She sat crying on the couch for what felt like an eternity. Fawad entered the room, gave a sideways glance to her and went to sleep.

She cried harder and after some time she fell asleep on the couch. After 5 hours she got up and looked at her phone, it was 6 AM. Though she was late for her salah it didn't matter much cause Allah knows and he forgives the believer. After namaz, she cried again. She could not understand the situation she was in. She wanted to believe that everything will be alright but nothing seemed to fit in the proper place. She was losing hope but had her faith firm on Allah.

Fawad woke up and got ready for the office. Everyone was at the dining table and Zaara was waiting for him as they used to eat from the same plate. Like many other promises, they had promised to continue eating from the same plate even if they had a fight.

Fawad greeted everyone and looked at Zaara, he was reminded of his promise but his ego was enough to ignore it.

Zaara looked at him but he took another plate and had his breakfast.

As Zaara sat there, drops of tears made their way from her eyes down her cheeks and she closed her eyes.

As usual that Fawad came back home but didn't talk to Zaara. When she saw him entering their room she got up from the couch.

"How was your day Fawad", Zaara asked with a sad smile, trying hard to behave strongly.

"It was good", Fawad replied without any interest.

"Shall I get coffee for you", Zaara asked

"Don't worry about me I said I'm fine", Fawad replied in frustration.

Zaara broke down on hearing his words and rushed to the washroom. She was upset since yesterday. It was Fawad's fault but he was acting as if it was entirely her fault. Most of the time they had Lil fights regarding this matter but this one was quite worse than before. Usually, he asked her to forgive him or made up with her by bringing her gifts....

The next day Zaara didn't wake up for breakfast and Aamina asked Fawad what was going on between them...

" Fawad.. what's going on? When I ask her she changes the topic. And when I insist her she says she will eat later.", Aamina asked.

"I don't know... Maybe she eats later... I'm getting late ammi...I'm leaving...", Fawad replied hastily.

" Fawad please go and ask her to come and have her breakfast. She doesn't listen to me and I'm worried", Aamina asked him with concern.

Fawad looked at Aamina and then after few seconds went upstairs...

"Zaara wake up, ammi is waiting for you. Go and have your breakfast", Fawad spoke in a formal tone.

"I will ha..ve it....I'm not we..ll..", Zaara replied with broken words. Her voice was hoarse and her face was red.

"What happened Zaara?... You look so pale...", Fawad asked politely. He went and sat on the bed beside her and checked her.

"I'm fine...you are getting late..so...", Zaara was trying to speak when Fawad cut her.

"Get up, look at me.. I will call the doctor as you have a fever. Come and have your breakfast, get up come with me", Fawad asked her.

Zaara got up and sat beside him. She looked into his eyes and spoke in a low voice," Fawad...you've hurt me soo...much.. You stopped talking to me as if it was all my fault.. You didn't even care to ask...how I felt?.. We had fights but we made up but this time you didn't even care...you..know what.. Someday you will come to see me but you won't be able to meet me..and..then...",

Fawad was listening to her and he couldn't let her continue further. He embraced her close to his chest and whispered," Please don't say so.. I'm sorry sweetheart.. I will make it up to you.. I'm sorry for hurting you."

Zaara sobbed and hugged him. She regretted saying soo much without thinking........

"Fawad..come and have lunch with us", Uzair called him and kept his hand on Fawad's shoulder to get his attention.

Fawad blinked back his tears and said," I will just perform my farz salah and come..I'm already late".

It was 3 PM but these days it hardly mattered to Fawad what the clock showed.
It was just another day for the world, for people around him, but for Fawad, it was one day closer to Hope, closer to finding a Miracle...

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Assalamualeikum and Hello everyone. You guys have no idea how much I loved your comments in previous chapters and I'm looking forward to such lovely comments in the future too.. in sha Allah! ❤

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Not a big chapter though, but I'm sure you're enjoying the story and hoping the best for Fawad. :)

I'm very busy these days so updates will be weekly.

SORRY :(

-Khadijah