Sad weather ...

I can't believe it

Mom: Honey I don't know how to put this. But your grandma died I wanted to tell you sooner but you have been so busy lately I just didn't want to stress you out more. Her funeral will be Saturday. I'm sorry breeze. Call me if you need me.
I just looked at my phone it seemed like hours had passed since I read that text but only seconds or mins had passed. I wanted to cry but I couldn't find the tears in me. So I just sat there frozen. My professor  must have seen my deer in the headlights look cause she got pissed that I zoned out. She was talking but I didn't hear a word. She said expect her screaming get out of my class. I looked at her with tears in my eyes. And spoke softly.
"I am extremely sorry it's just my mother texted me telling me my grandma had died earlier this week and I had no clue she was even close to dying and I didn't even get to say goodbye I extremely sorry I need to go." I left before I started bawling in class. I think my professor said something on the lines of "oh my I am so sorry for your loss." But I was gone before I could respond to it. All I did was run home and go to my room and cry and cry and cry till I fell asleep.
Dreaming.
Push me higher grandma higher.
"I can't dear that is has high has you can get to the sky from here love bug." She said sweetly.
"But grandma I wanna go higher" so she kept pushing me. And than I started to fly into another world. And I saw my grandma laughing or telling me she loved me or telling me how crazy she was when she was my age. How I should never regret anything cause it makes me who I am. Than she started to fade she was yelling at me on how I didn't even say goodbye how I never visited how she was so disappointed in me. And before it could get any worse  I Woke up screaming.
End of dream.
Sweat pouring down my face. Sky comes bursting through my door with a baseball bat . Till she notices me bawling. Her tone was sound worrisome. "What's wrong breeze you never wake up screaming is everything okay." I look up and she instantly knew something very bad has happened cause I guess my eyes said I was broken. I told her how my mom told me that my grandma died. I told her about my awful dream I had. And I just sat there and cried.  I fell back asleep into a dreamless sleep. The next morning I woke up to a text.
Adien: morning beautiful
Me: morning
Adien: what I don't get a morning handsome ?
Me:well that would call for me to think you where handsome ;)
Adien: well than okay. Are you ready for Saturday? It's gonna be a all day thing.
Me: I can't make it ...
Adien :are you serious but you told me you where in for Saturday.
Me: that's before I found out my grandma died. I have to go to her funeral Saturday.
Adien: right... You have a funeral to go to...
He honestly thinks I'm lying are you fucking kidding me who lies about going to a funeral I guess his fucked up exes.
Me: Adien in serious my grandma actually did die.. I screen shot what my mom sent me i mean it pretty silly having to prove a death in family but I wasn't have him think I was ditching him.
Adien :OMG BREEZE I AM SO SORRY ...you can have a free nut shot for me being such a complete dick...
Me : I'll keep that Adien
Adien :I'll come with you and than take you home and hold you
I blushed
Me: okay
And I fell back asleep again. My life seems so incomplete at this moment. I thought to myself and I was hoping it would get better but guess who shows up at my door drunk.