Talk Me Down

The Beginning

I'm not the same girl that I use to be. I wasn't always a "hot headed bad ass" as people has said lately about me. It's  just somethings went down last year and I haven't been the same since. It's not like I ask to be in this position but I am. I have to deal with what happen so I act tough the way "he" taught me. After everything I can't seem to put any of my feelings into words that he was taken from me. And I know he was bad for me but I loved him and I believed he loved me too. I sometimes didn't want to feel anymore because he was gone but I knew I had to get my life together so it was best Ace was gone. He showed me that the world is a big disappointment so I should just be the worst person I could be and don't care about anything or anybody.Now even more I wanted to do it, the things I've been through anybody that's been through the same things as me would feel the same way.I get life's hard but I didn't expect my life to be this way but I knew I needed to change the way I see it. I thought as I sat in front of my therapist.
" I think we have made a lot of progress from when we first started 8 months ago and I think the idea of you being in a new environment with new people will do you some good", she said. "Maybe you'll even make new good friends", she smiled while pushing her glasses up over her head.
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4 weeks later

Today I felt like it was going to be an good day, a new and fresh start since it was a new year and first day of school. Now I'm sounding like my therapist  and mom as I thought. As I'm Walking into the high school as an junior I realized this year is going to be tough as for being the new girl in a new town. But this new start was going to be different, it has to be different than the past. As I'm caught up in my thought not noticing where I was going I ran straight into this dude, knocking both of us over.

"Sorry sorry",was all I could say.

With so much sass he said, "NEXT TIME LOOK WHERE YOU GOING", causing a big scene making every one stop and stare. I wanted to yell back calling him every name in the book but remembered that this was a new me and that I couldn't be that same girl with that bad temper again. So I took a deep breath, got up and kept moving.

As I walked down the hall looking for my class, asking for directions but ignore. I started feeling my temper flare up and I started panicking making it hard to breath. I rushed to the nearest bathroom having all the girls stare at me.

"Freak" I heard while the other girls laughed which made me even anger. Staring them down as they walked out, I knew if I didn't practice my breathing right now my temper would take over making me do things I'll regret.

"Breath in; hold for 5 sec,Breathe out" I did this about 4 times and felt more at ease with each sets.

"Ding" , the school bell went off and I was already late for class on the first day. Rushing out of the bathroom, running through the halls I finally found my first class already missing 10 minutes. As I enter the class I felt my heart stop as all eyes where on me.

"Nice for you to join us Miss um...", the teacher said with attitude.

"Um Waverley Mikaelson", I stated not acting on the attitude I was given.

"Well class, Miss Mikaelson here will be given after school detention for being late to class even if it's the first day", he announced to the class. "New  policies and new guidelines and what a great way to show a perfect example than with the new girl, am I right", he laughed. "I'm joking but not about the new guidelines and policies so Miss  Mikaelson why don't you go take your seat next to, let's see Mr Francis so we can continue class ok go on".

"Man fuck this and fuck you " I mumbled  under my breathe as I walked to the back to take my seat in the only empty chair.