It Makes The Pain Go Away [Kellic]

~Ch 13~

I couldn't think. Everything was falling apart around me and I just wanted to crawl in a ball and cry. I want Vic to live, but he knows he isn't getting better. I can't convince him he's getting better when he's not can I? It's getting harder to hold on to him.

He falls apart every time he looks at me, like he's losing something important to him. I'm not important...... why would he care?

I sat on the bed, my head hung in my hands as I thought about Vic. I missed him. Right now he was getting some treatment for what he has. I didn't even know why he was dying or what was killing him.

I had to be there for him.

I heard a sudden knock and the door that made me jump.

"Hey, you ok in there?" it was Alex.

"I....," tears came to my eyes. Wow, I'm a wimp.

"What's wrong?" he walked over to me and sat next to me, "Did they run out of your favorite cereal or something?"

I laughed a little, "No."

"Is it Vic? Did he say something to make you cry! I'll kill him!"

"No, no, no. It's just....," should I even tell him this? I fell like this is too personal, "Nothing."

"Nothing?" he frowned.

I shook my head and stood up. I have to be strong for him. I wiped my tears and smiled a little, "See, nothing."

"You're only fooling yourself," Alex shrugged and walked out of the room. He was right.

"What do I do," I mumbled to myself.

I threw my face into a pillow and lied there. I didn't know what I could do when I stuck in a place like this.

I heard rustling and shot up. I must have fallen asleep.

"Who's there," I looked around, but didn't see anyone right away. Vic's head shot up from behind the bed and I fell to the floor scared shitless.

"Fuck! Don't do that! I almost had a heart attack," I clutched at my chest.

"Sorry," he rubbed the back of his neck.

"I was just trying to find something."

"What are you looking for?"

"Just my phone...."

"What? You can have a phone in here!" I got to my feet and ran over to him.

"I get special privilege you know," he gave me a smirk and then pulled it out of his pocket, "you dumbass."

"You're not a dumbass," I laughed, patting his shoulder.

"Yea I am. Especially when I saw you in here. That was stupid of me to act like a jerk. I don't know what ever possessed me to act like that."

"It's ok. I understand why you would be upset."

"So about that kiss... I'm sorry," he blushed, looking down at the floor.

"Yea.... um," I wasn't sure what to say.

Kiss him.

I looked around to see where that voice came from.

"Did you hear that?" I asked him. He looked up and gave me a weird look.

"No, what the hell are you talking about."

"Uh nothing," I knew I was crazy.

"I'm really sorry about the kiss though, I don't know why I did that and I just...."

He kept blabbing on and on getting more flustered as he spoke.

Kiss him Kellin. You know you want to.

Who keeps saying that? The voice kept saying this over and over.

I tried to ignore it, but I found myself actually listening to it. That's what I wanted, how would it know that? Maybe because it's myself, duh.

"Vic."

"I just... yea?"

"Shut up," I grabbed his face and kissed him. It was quick, but enough to make me realize something.

I was falling in love with this boy and I was just now seeing that.

I pulled away and smirked, "Don't worry about it."

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