Loving Her

Cry Part 1: Chapter 4

You gone cry, you gone pay me in tears

You gone cry, you owe me for all these years

You gone cry

'Cause it's not about love, it's all about revenge so

Cry

~~K Michelle

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Amiti POV

          I should be smiling right now. 

I should be happy and excited yet instead I feel nothing, but guilt. How come I'm not happy? My girlfriend is about to cater to me then touch me like no one ever has before, but I'm sitting here about to throw up. I feel so confused. 

" You okay, princess? You look like you're thinking about something pretty deep." Brayelle asked and I knew she was staring at me without even glancing over at her.

" I'm okay. Just nervous about tonight." I said. Well technically I am nervous so it's only half lying.

" Amiti if you're not ready-"

" 10 years ago they raided our village. They took everything....including some of my family members. I was hiding under the bed with Ajuan, my brother, when they came in the room and..." Tears started to fall as I told the horrible events of my past, " ....they grabbed me by the legs and yanked me from up under the bed. Ajuan was a teenager, but he was scrawny and too young to really stand up to them. He tried fighting, but one of them hit him on the head with the butt of their gun and he was out. Then... 2 of them took turns having their way with me Brayelle! I-it felt like I was there for days being repeatedly rammed into!" 

I had soaked Brayelle's shirt and was ugly crying now. She held me and took everything in with no tears. I hope I can be strong like her one day.

" Who is "they"?" She asked, " I need names or some kind of identification. Tell me Amiti! Stop fucking crying okay? I'm not gonna let anything else happen to you baby, but I need you to describe who it was!" 

Staring up at her with teary eyes I nodded and wiped my tears. 

" I-I remember the first guy had a short, reddish afro and spoke fluent English like he came straight outta Alabama or something, but his complexion and curly hair made him appear to be mixed with Mexican. The second guy was really dark and had these eyes that seemed to peer into your soul and had piercings all over. Both of them had this tattoo of a snake in a triangle with the letter M beside it on their necks." 

"  I'm gonna handle this okay? But you have to move on Amiti! Stop letting your past get in the way of our relationship. I barely even get to touch you. I just wanna let you know I love and I'm gonna stand by you no matter if we never have sex or not. Understood?" She asked.

" I'll try. I promise." I said. She took my hand and kissed it then kissed my lips.

That kiss pushed out any doubt, fear, and regret I had! It gave me the validation I craved. Brayelle's not leaving. She's riding with me til the wheels fall off. I'm a priority in her life and she'll never hurt me. I wonder what she meant when she said she'll handle it though.

I'm starting to think Brayelle is a lot more dangerous than she lets on.

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