Dinner wasn't much. It mainly consisted of the boys telling tour stories and Eleanor telling just as many about her outings. I stole glances at Louis every few moments, and god was he beautiful. He looked perfect, but the one thing that got me was the way he looked. It was the most entranced look of love, but it was all directed towards Eleanor which made me nauseous. I just wished he would look at me that way, kind of the way he used to. There was never a day that I didn't think about those days, way back when, when all we needed was each other to be happy. I thought that was love, but I guess I was sadly mistaken.
"So Harry!" she directed all attention towards me. "We haven't hung out in ages, what have you been up to?"
"Oh, uh, well," I cleared my throat, "I've just been around the house since break started. Nothing spectacular."
"Oh well that sounds... nice? I really think we should catch up some time over dinner. Just me, you, and Lou. Doesn't that sound great!?" she smiled at Lou as she took his hands in hers.
"That sounds great babe," he grinned and kissed her nose. "I can't wait, especially if it means spending time with you." There was another kiss and my heart burst into bits.
I hastily stood up from my chair, making sure it dragged, and began picking up the plates. "Uh yeah, I'm gunna go and put up these plates and stuff," I muttered and scurried out. When I reached the kitchen, I threw the dishes into the sink and sunk down to the floor, head in hands. Why couldn't everything be simple? Why couldn't we just have the life that I wished for every waking moment of my being? Because life sucks, that's why, and sometimes I wondered if it was all worth it.
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So I had a much longer and better written chapter but my computer shut off in the middle of typing it and deleted it so yeah. I'll fix any typos later.
