Devastated

Chapter 3

     It's been two weeks since the dinner party. Me and Jake are still dating but, it's been hard. I still didn't forgive him, which he knows. He keeps trying to get me to forgive him but, I just can't. I know it's a stupid thing to be mad at but I just, I am mad and I don't know why. Jake said he wants to talk to me about something important last time he did that it was to invite me to see his parents. I am so nervous, I have no clue what he wants to talk about. When I get to the restaurant that he told me to meet him at, we sit down and I ask him what this is all about. He told me that he can't stand the thought of me being mad at him and that I need to forgive him. I told him I don't know if I should. He started to cry and so did I. I told him come on wipe your tears, I will forgive you but you have to promise no more lies or secrets. "Ok" he said " Ok, don't worry no more secrets from me". I told him " I hope me trusting you is not a mistake." " It's not, it's not, don't worry." We ate lunch he walked me home and gave me a kiss goodnight. I was so happy we had made up but I had this funny feeling, like, like he wasn't telling me something. I just ignored, I thought it was just me being stupid because I finally found a boy that really likes me for me. So I am so happy know, I am over the lies and feel better, but I woke up this morning feeling the same way, having that same feeling. This went on for days. I finally decided to confront him about this feeling I had. When I told him about it he looked not surprised, like what I felt was true. I asked him if there was something going on that he wants to tell me about, is there another girl or something, but he denied it all. I didn't believe him so I went to his house that night and when he went take a shower I went through his phone and saw these texts from some girl named Sarah. They talked about how much they love each other and that they had so much fun on there dates last month. I was mad, no I was furious, and sad, and I felt like nothing, like I was nothing to him throughout every kiss, every hug, every date and day we spent together and every text he sent me. Every time he told me he loved me, it was a lie,😭😭😭. None of our relationship was real, well nothing but the lies.