Erin

Ahhhh tutor time not a bad part of the day. I'm actually in quite a nice tutor group but there is this one girl called Poppy who can be a bit cheeky sometimes but that dose not matter. I went to sit down (we are in a science room) I don't really sit next to anyone I kinda like to be in my own. Sir called out the register and I answered my name sir then proceeded to say "so today guys we have a new member joining our tutor group her name is Erin come here Erin now you can sit next to Connor right there" he was pointing right to the empty chair next to me. It was then when I first got my first glance at Erin... She was so beautiful I have never seen anyone like her before, she was perfect, complete and utter perfection. She had the most prettiest blue eyes anyone could possess, long wavy brown hair. She was quit tall almost my height actually, she had freckles little dark freckles on her cheek. Her breasts were not too large. AGHHHH she is so so so so perfect, SHE is the one for me the only one who can fix my broken heart. She walked towards me, I had butterfly's in my stomach.
"Hi" she said softly, she was nervous I could tell nervous about starting this new school. I replied saying "hey" I added a cheeky smile just to add atmosphere. She smiled back, with the cutest smile in the world. I was in.

Lunch

Oh my god, Erin is amazing she likes anime and BVB, she is so nice. Hang on a sec she is one of the only people that is nice to me. Earlier on I had discovered that Erin had moved into the area about 2 weeks ago. She moved because her dad had got fired from his last job (because the place closed) and he now works here. She has a cat a black and white one if I remember correctly its name is Amber I believe.

I went to the already half full lunch hall, sat down with Poppys group of friends and started to eat. The only reason I sat with them is because I didn't want to be seen alone, that would really help my cause with the bullies.

I finished my lunch and walked outside to see if I could find Erin, I needed to talk to her. I'm not going to ask her out, no not yet it's still her first day. Maybe next week yes next week that's what I'll do I'll ask her out next week.

I can't stop thinking about her, her face, her body, her voice. She is the one for me there is no one else out there like her, she understands me I think she feels the same way too.

1 week later

Oh my god we definitely have a connection we have spoken every single day since she came to our school. Every single day. I have her phone number now. We text each other every night instead of revising for our GCES I know exactly how to make her laugh and she knows exactly how to make me laugh. Suddenly my phone makes a BEEP BEEP BEEP, it was Erin she wanted to know if we could go to town together the following day. FUCK YES I thought this was it, this is a date. I darted to my phone, picked it up as fast as I could and texted back sure with a wink emoji at the end.

The date
It is a nice warm sunny Friday today no rain no cold just sun. The way it should be every day. I pulled on my school uniform, I could not wait for the end of the day I was ready. But then a thought suddenly darted into my head. What if she wants to go to the park. What if the old man is there. Waiting for me. Nahhhh it's impossible he won't be there. He WONT.

I met Erin after school at the library, she looks so pretty in our uniform. A black jumper, black skirt she looked perfect. We walked down the road into town chatting constantly about our school day l. There were no pauses in the middle of our sentences no gaps. We both seemed to know what to say and when to say it. We were making each other laugh at rude jokes or what the person on the other side of the street was wearing. Suddenly I felt something slowly touch my hand it was Erin's hand, I carefully closed my fingers around hers and we walked down together. "Hey do you want to go to the park" she asked with her signature cute smile on her face. Thoughts shot through my head reminding me of the horrific thing that happened there I did not want to see that place again. But I agreed for Erin's sake. Erin walked me over to a small bench in the shadow of the trees. For a moment we sat in silence until I said "this is where my friend Tom died" I shed a little tear when I said his name ( I couldn't help it)
"I'm sorry" she said whilst gazing into my eyes. I could tell she meant it, it was her tone of voice that got me crying. Someone was actually helping me through this (apart from the councilling sessions I get).
"He meant a lot to me he was my best friend, my only friend" I shed another tear a bigger one this time. I wiped the last of my remaining tears away no I will not cry I thought but that didn't help. The tears just kept coming and coming.
"Hey look Connor you've got me". She replied softly. She brushed my tears away, her hands were soft it comforted me.
"I love you Connor" she slowly leaned in and brushed her lips against mine. I held her waist tightly and kissed harder and harder. I detached my lips from hers and started kissing her neck she was making soft groans of appreciation. I put my lips back on hers and we carried on for another 5 minutes. Our lips parted.
"I love you too Erin" I said softly and gave her a cheeky grin.

FUCK YES me and Erin are now a couple, I have been waiting for this for a week now. Wait this relationship could lead to marriage this could lead to sex SEX. Oh my god my life is now complete she is the other half to me my only one. She is so hot, so hot I can't stop fucking thinking about her.

2 months later
"Why are you still having those fucking panic attacks" yelled my mum from across the table,
"It's not my fault mum (I sobbed)ever since Tom died I've gotten uncontrollable panic attacks it's not my fucking fault!" "You know what I'm going to go to Erin's house, she actually cares about me!" I stormed out of the house and slammed the door shut. I shouldn't have shouted at my mum like that it's been hard for her over the years, dads died, her parents died. All she has left is me and it doesn't help if I'm an incompetent little bitch.

Erin's house
I ran over to the door of Erin's house and knocked 3 times. Erin opened the door she looked really happy to see me! She ran towards me and gave me the biggest hug, I hugged her back and gave her a quick kiss on her cheek. She giggled at this, sweet, cute giggle that I love. We ran upstairs letting out uproars of little giggles, ahh im so happy right now being with Erin makes me feel alive. We walked from the top of the stairs to her room holding hands, ahhhh I'm so relaxed. I then decided in my head that I should tell her about my panic attacks it's just something she should know. So when we were sitting on her bed together snuggling I broke the news to her. "Hey babe I should've told you this a while ago but ever since Tom died I have been having panic attacks and suffered from depression, you are the one thing that stops me from being grumpy all the time, without you I would be lost."
"Awwww baby don't worry about the panic attacks it will be alright I'm here for you, I love you." She stated.
"I love you too" I replied giving her a wink. We both lay down together in silence, I was tracing circles on her hands (something she really liked). Erin broke the silence by saying "hey Connor are you a virgin?" She was gazing into my eyes obviously expecting a reply.
"Yeah why?" I replied questioning her.
"Good, then this will be new to both of us" she answered back smiling.
"What about a Condom?" I asked nervously.
"Don't worry what are the chances that I will become pregnant anyway" she said confidently.
"Alright let's do it" I smiled at her, it was a seductive smile.

She crawled towards me and unzipped the zip on my jeans she then proceeded to take my boxers off. She grabbed my penis, it was almost like she had never seen one before. She then moved her hand up and down, I let out small groans of appreciation, she was enjoying it I could tell it was her eyes it was her eyes that told me. I then took my shirt off (I was fully naked now) I slowly crawled towards her, unbuttoned her dress and ripped her bra off. I started to play with them, they were soft and squidgy. Erin took her pants off and beckoned me to place my thing inside her thing. We both made groaning sounds they weren't loud but it felt loud to me. I then told Erin I had to leave and have tea. But Erin offered for me to stay the night. So I quickly got my school uniform from home and dashed back. We were both sat down watching a film Erin wanted to watch on Netflix. I eventually gave in as to not hurt her feelings. When the film ended I let out a quiet sigh of relief ( it was one of those really shitty rom coms).
"Hey Connor can you do me a really big favour?" Erin asked
"Sure, anything for you" I replied smiling.
"So here's the deal, my father is in prison at the moment and I'm going to see him on Saturday afternoon, so I was wondering if you would like to come with me."
"Sure I'll come, but why is he in prison?" I sternly asked.
"He killed someone in self defence, except I don't think he killed that person in self defence. Something just tells me that's not true. I honestly don't know who to trust anymore."
"It's alright don't worry the past is in the past, let's go to bed." I reassured her. She silently agreed. We both got in bed together and slept soundlessly through the night.