I was never good enough. Everything I did was wrong. I was a failure. They drained me of life everyday I showed up. Leaving me dull and alone. But at the end of the day I still had hope. I changed everything about myself but still they found something that didn't please them. People say don't let there words bring you down but how do you not let it? I went from being a cheerful person to a lifeless person in matter of seconds. My life was falling to pieces and I couldn't put it back together. I just started fading. My mind was telling me one thing and my heart was telling me another. The hope I once had became a distance memory. Doctors told me I was a strong girl that I would get over it but I knew different. Some even were surprised I made it this far. I was surprised to. 14 years of life and nothing seems to be going right. Dreams don't exist in the life I was living. The only thing that did exist was pain. I was drowning in my depressing thoughts. No one would save me, not that I could be saved. Love? That was a joke people believed. I felt hopeless. I was hopeless. Nothing could help me now. I read somewhere that it's not painful. Leaving you know? My life was a journey that didn't take off.
