Holding Onto Sanity (1D)

Tin Box

Niall's POV

As the driver pulled up to the stadium I took a deep breath and stepped out of the car. Luckily I was able to go through the back where there weren't any fans. I quickly walked past the guards and ran to the dressing room where the boys got me ear plug that plays the track in and handed me my microphone.

"Showtime." Liam took out a bag of gummy bears.

"Come on Zayn!" Harry shouted and Zayn came sprinting out of the bathroom.

"Sorry. You know I have to brush my teeth." He shrugged. Liam handed all of us a gummy bear.

"Here's to us. Let's have a good concert mates." We raised our gelatin bears in the air and did cheers and ate them. After that we went on stage. The screaming and lights hit me like a brick wall. I suddenly got shaky and nervous. Zayn walked over to me while Harry and Louis talked to the crowd.

"Hey are you okay?" He whispered in my ear.

"Yeah, i'm fine." I lied.

"Did you take your pills?"

"No."

"Shit Niall. Come on." He grabbed my arm. Liam jogged towards us.

"Hey where are you going?"

"Dumb ass didn't take his pills. Now he's freaking out." Zayn answered.

"Zayn, don't call him a dumb ass."

"Well he is. We'll be right back." Liam walked off and Zayn drug me back to the dressing room and pulled out my bottle of pills that they kept just in case I forgot mine.

"You don't have to baby me." I crossed my arms.

"Well stop acting like a child and I won't." He took two pills out and grabbed a bottle of water and handed them to me. "Swallow." He ordered.

"I'm depressed not a toddler. Sheesh." I swallowed them and we walked back out onto the stage.

"Now that Zayn and Niall are back let's start!" Louis said as we approached them.

We finally finished the concert and left the stadium. I had a pulsing head ache. The boys were gunna go to a bar but I just wanted to get back to the hotel. I entered my room and laid on my bed.

"Fuck me life." I groaned and rolled over. I landed on something hard and reached under me to see what it was. I pulled it out and looked at it, the tin box. I quickly sat up and set it in me lap and traced my finger along the metal. I pulled the top off and looked at the items it contained. I pulled out each thing and placed them on my bed. I found the note that had "V.Q." written on the front and unfolded it.

"So you're going to be sticking through to hear my story? I appreciate it. I'll tell you pieces of my story in each note. Here it goes. I was born in a small town in Maryland in the United States. My birthday is April 16, 1995. I was born in a local hospital. My parents took me home in a little pink blanket little every other little girl. They always told me how happy they were that I was born. They cared for me, played with me, and loved me. My life was great, until I turned 5. On my fifth birthday my mom and dad told me they had a surprise for me. But they never returned. I later found out that the reason they didn't come back, was because they were killed on their way back. There was a deer in the rode and my dad freaked out and swerved and hit another car head on. The other driver ended up in the hospital with many broken bones and died only 3 days after. I couldn't help but blame myself for all of their deaths, they were in fact going and getting a special doll I wanted for my birthday. Being so little I didn't know what had happened. I couldn't comprehend it. The police offers continued to tell me 'Mommy and daddy are gone, sweetie' But I never knew what they meant. No one knew what to do with me. I always thought they were going to come back with my present. But once they showed me my parents dead bodies in the morgue, it hit me. My mom and dad weren't coming back. I was alone. Not to long after that they moved me from foster home to foster home. I didn't understand why no one liked me. But you'll hear about that in the next note. I left some clues in the box with this note. Hopefully you'll understand.
~Victoria Quinn"

I folded the note up and thought about what I just read. This girl's parents died when she was 5. And they died getting her present. I can't imagine the guilt that she feels. But it's not her fault. She didn't put the deer there. She didn't put the other car there. Me thoughts were interrupted by a knocking on me door. I quickly put everything back in the box and slid it under my bed.

"Uh, come in." I said trying to make sure there was no sign of the box. My door swung open and there stood a very scantily clad Demi.

"Hey Niall." She said seductively.

"Hi Demi." I looked her up and down. She doesn't normally dress this... Well slutty.

"Like what you see?" She slowly walked towards me.

"Why are you dressed like that?" I started getting nervous. I know why she was dressed like that. And it's not like I haven't had sex before, but I really don't want to have it with her.

"You know why Niall." She pushed me back onto my bed and straddled my waist.

"Demi." I said sternly.

"Oh loosen up. It was your first concert back tonight, you should have some fun." She leaned down and kissed me. I pushed her up.

"You don't want to do this." I didn't want to do this, but I wasn't going to say it straight up. That's rude.

"I really do." She continued kissing me and took my hands and placed them on her breasts. I eyes widened and I pulled them away and crawled out from under her. "What's wrong?" She pouted.

"We can't do this." I stood in front of her.

"Of course we can silly. We're both adults." She smiled at me.

"I mean, I'm not in the mood tonight."

"Oh. Are you sure?"

"Yes i'm sure." I wasn't lying. I was tired.

"Okay, well i'll see you tomorrow I guess." She stood up and fixed her night gown.

"Yeah, see you tomorrow." I closed the door behind and her and took off my clothes and laid in bed. I couldn't sleep though. I lay awake thinking about Victoria. Trying to imagine what she looks like. I couldn't come up with what I visioned her to be like. So I closed my eyes and drifted off.

A little girl. A little girl standing there with a cone shaped hat on her head I couldn't see what it said. She had short black hair, she was wearing a short pink dress, and blue eyes. They were an icy blue color. The odd part was she was standing in the middle of the rode. I looked around and saw a car coming towards her. I yelled for her to get out of the way, but she didn't budge. She just looked at me. The car passed right through her. She stood there looking unharmed. I was baffled. She was staring straight ahead and I turned to see what she was looking at, a deer walked into the street. I watched as the car swerved and smashed into another car. Smoke blew everywhere and their engines when up into flames. The little girl started crying. I stood there and watched her sob. Then an older girl, this one with long black hair that was curled neatly and had skinny jeans and a ruffled white tank top on, walked up to the little girl and set her hand on her shoulder. The little girl turned to her and hugged her tightly. I stared at them and the older girl looked at me. She had the same icy blue eyes as the little one. But she had a little bit of makeup on. She walked towards me and stood only a foot away from me. She placed her hand on my cheek. Then I woke up.

I sat up in my bed breathing heavily and sweating. I looked at my surroundings and saw the clock beside me. It was 1 in the morning. I stood up and put a shirt and sweats on and went to the lobby to get something to eat. I paid the cashier for my crisps and nuts and started walking back to my room. But stopped when I heard moaning coming from the room with vending machines. I crept around the corner and saw Demi dry humping some guy as they made out. I shook my head and continued walking. Unbelievable. I took the elevator up to me floor and went into me room and planted meself on me bed. I opened my crisp bag and put one in mouth as I pulled out the tin box. The cover came off and I looked at the different things. There was a picture of Hitler, the cover of the Human Centipede, and a picture of the Berlin wall with a symbol on the back of it. I set the items back into the box and put it in me suitcase. Good thing Berlin was our next stop.