Im a mess (Moreid)

Gone

Thats it. She was gone. The woman who raised me and loved me with all her heart. Yeah she was very ill and i knew this would happen but not this soon. Not like this.

It was early morning and the team got together as usual, sitting around the round table waiting for garcia and hotch. Morgan is confused as to where reid is cause he is usually always here. He's probably just running late. "Hes always gotta stop and get his coffee."Morgan thought. Hotch and garcia enter the room finally ready to prep the team for the case. "Guys reid wont be able to make it to this case so we are gonna need everyone's brains on this." Said hotch. Morgan now was very confused. Why cant reid be here? Reid never misses work? Morgan tried to get it off his mind and listen to garcia and hotch. " there has been a string of murders in southern Las vegas. Victims are found with letters carved into the skin on their stomaches and tied up to trees in public parks. We need to get out there as soon as possible. Wheels up in 30" The team packed up and got on the jet to go. On the ride there morgan couldn't stop thinking about reid. He didnt know why but he just wanted to know why reid couldnt be here. 
Morgan and reids texts
Morgan: hey pretty boy hotch said you couldnt make it to this case. Just checking up to see if everything is okay.
Reid: oh hey thanks. Um yeah im okay. Just some family stuff going on. Im in vegas right now.
Morgan: were on the jet to vegas right now. Wanna catch a movie or get some dinner while were both here?  
Reid: yeah um sure theres an amazing taco place i wanna go to. See ya Wednesday at 7? Pick Me up at the bellview motel. Its where im staying.
Morgan: Wednesday at 7. Thats great for me. See you then reid.

Morgan and reid both had feelings for each other. But they never expressed their love because of fear of what others may think.

Reid POV
Today was the day. Today i had to face my fears. I had to go talk to the doctors about my moms death. The only thing getting me through it was the fact that i get to see morgan tonight. He always knows how to help.
"We are so sorry for your loss Dr.reid" said the doctor.
Reid just nodded and looked down.
"I really wish there was a way we could have prevented this. We had no idea she would ever do this."
"What do you mean?" Asked reid
"Oh im so sorry you dont know?"
Reid raised an eyebrow and shook his head.
" your mother didnt just pass. She uh she committed suicide." Quietly said the doctor.
Reid was speechless.
Why did she do it? Was it me? Could i have prevented this whole thing? He was completely numb.
Reid headed back to his motel, bawling the whole way home. He got home, threw his stuff on the ground, and started to get filled with anger and sorrow. He punched the wall causing there to be a hole in the wall and his knuckles to bleed. He then fell down sitting on the floor crying. "Why!" He screamed. After about 5 minutes reid got up and headed toward the mini kitchen that was in the motel.  He grabbed a knife and began cutting into his stomach and wrists. He grabbed a bottle of tylenol and headed for the bathroom. He chugged the pills and blacked out.
Morgans pov
He was so excited to see reid. He put on his favorite cologne and headed for reids motel. When he got there he tried to wipe his stupid grin off his face and then knocked on the door. Why was there no response? He knocked again. Reid? Its Morgan. Come on pretty boy i know you didn't forget about our date. Still no answer.