It was late October 2012 when I stopped wanting to be myself anymore.12 years old.done with my doctors telling me I can't be with my friends or go to school done and people trying to tell me what to do.at the time my doctors just gave me the news at the hospital I was very sick and could not go to school or see my friends or go out of the house for that matter.on the way home from the hospital I just sat in the truck with silence I didn't want to talk to my parents.I wanted to break down and cry but I couldn't in front of my parents.when I got home I rushed to my room with tears staring to fill my eyes and I cried for about a hour.then I started texting my BFF Kaileia I knew it was school hours but if it was a emergency and it was she would answer.i texted her in detail.then later she came knocking on the front door of my house.i ran down to answer. I told my dad I was going to go for a walk with Kaileia. Me and Kaileia went on a long walk she asked me lots of questions that I didn't know the answer to. Then she told me it would be ok and not to worry.i ident fully believe her.then we started walking home.Kaileia told me she would tell my friends at school what had happened so I didn't have to.i thanked her.when we got back to my house I hugged her goodbye.she told me to text her that night.i said ok.at dinner that night I ate very little.my mom asked if I was ok? I said yeah.after dinner I went up to my room and sat and texted Kaileia.she said that we could always just do fun things at home.i told her she could come over tomorrow after she had finished school.then she told me she would take notes for me in class so I could keep up with work.i told her ok.that night I just sat in my room thinking.i questioned myself if I was going to live or not?if I was going to die or even be in the hospital for my whole life.But some how I knew I was way in over my head and I was just thinking too much!. At about 10:00 I went to bed.the next day I woke up and had breakfast but I didn't really feel like eating.i only ate 2 bites of my eggs the I went to my room put my hair in a bun then put on a loose t-shirt and black pants.i figured it was good for me because I wasn't going any were so it didn't really matter any how.at about 3:00 Kaileia came to my house she brought home work for us to do together.we did about a hours worth of homework then we went up to my room and talked and for once we talked about things we always talked about and not just medical stuff. We talked for hours then we got tired and I asked my parents if she could stay over night they said yes.
