I Care About You... (a septiplier fan fic)

•Chapter 3•

All through our 8th grade year, it always consisted of Mark on the phone with Yami whenever we had free time. At lunch, recess, and even after school, all I would hear is sentimental remarks between the two. I tried always to keep my cool around him, it was hard seeing someone you've liked from day one get taken away by someone who probably doesn't even care about him.

I sit back sometimes and wonder to myself what would have happened if I confessed to him. Would he have said yes and meant it? Would he have said yes out of pity for my feelings? Or would he have said no because of his feelings for Yami?

I wish I was able to tell Mark how i feel, but I was always too scared. Now that he's dating Yami, I can't tell him anymore, and you know how I said something felt off with Yami? Let's rewind a little bit.

~winter break~

I was at the mall with Cry and Ken, we checked out Game Shop to see if we could afford a new game that we could play together. Just so happen, Yami was there. More surprisingly, he was there alone. He approached us and looked at me with a devilish smirk.

"Oh, hey guys! Long time no see! How has everyone been?" Already I felt this wave of sadness and anger flow through me. I try my best to keep my composure, he's still a person with feelings and I must try and be nice to him.

"I'm doing great, Yami! Still consistently on honor roll and such, and how are you doing?" I'm pretty sure I sounded like a sarcastic asshole, but I don't think it mattered when your "friend" knows you like someone and purposely asks them out.

"I'm doing swell in school Jack, thanks for asking." Everyone could feel the tension between Yami and I. I could tell Ken felt a bit awkward, and even with his mask on i could tell Cry felt the same way.

"Hey... Um, Jack.... We should buy the game and get out of here if we, uh... Want to make it to our movie on time...." Finally realizing things are slowly getting out of hand, I snap back into reality. Cry and Ken start to turn around to leave, but I wasn't gonna allow Yami to have the last say in things.

"I'm surprised you're not here with your boyfriend Yami, it's a shame that you would allow him to stay home, waiting for a call or text from you." his lips part to say something, but nothing came out, he seemed almost amazed at what I just said to him. Cry grabs me by the hood of my sweater and drags me out of the store, I left with a evil smirk on my face, staring into Yami's soul.

Later that day, as we were walking around the Mall, I spot Yami in Starbucks, holding a girls hand, and seeming really friendly with her. His hand around her hip, the way he looked at her, his eyes were filled with a hunger.

"Uh, guys?" We stop in our tracks and the both of them look at me quizzically. "Is that Yami with that girl?" Cry and Ken direct their attention to the girl and Yami. My head felt hot in anger, he's cheating on Mark! Besides, he doesn't deserve Mark, I DO! It sounds selfish, but i'd be better than this low life. I had my fists clenched at my sides, I can't allow him to hurt Mark.

"Guys, do you think we should tell Mark?" Ken asked sounding really concerned.

"We could try, but I don't know if he will believe us or not. And if he does, Yami will probably come up with a lie to cover it..." It was sad, but true. Mark is way too in love with Yami to even think he would cheat on him, sure they've been dating for a while already, but that doesn't mean Yami is as loyal as Mark thinks he is.

We went to go and tell Mark about our recent sighting of Yami and the mystery woman the next time we saw him. His response was as we predicted it would be.

"What? No, Yami wouldn't do that! He may be bi, but that doesn't mean Yami would cheat on me! He loves me too much, I know it."

"I know Mark, i'm not trying to blame it on the bisexuality, that's not fair and it's an uncalled for stereotype. What i'm blaming is him as a person, he's not in his right mind and it's not fair to you."

"Jack, I get that you're protecting me, but I don't think this is the right way. For all we know she's a friend. I don't want to talk about it anymore." He turns away and goes to talk to Felix.

I knew he wouldn't believe us, I knew I should have gotten a picture. But I was so busy having jealousy take over that I didn't snap a picture. I didn't want Mark to be hurt by some asshole, I wanted him to be happy.

"Yeah Jack, I think you're over reacting about this whole thing." I shot a look to Felix. He immediately realized he shouldn't have said that. Mark looked over at Felix with a funny look, not understanding what Felix meant by that.

~end of flash back~

After that incident, it filled me with rage especially whenever I went third wheeling with Mark and Yami. Seeing them hold hands only reminded me of seeing Yami hold hands with that girl. Seeing them kiss felt like a sledge hammer to the heart. I wish I was Yami, except I would treat Mark way better.

I decided I needed to get over myself and tried to block out the feelings I had for Mark. Eventually, I felt I kinda "got over" Mark, I still liked him A LOT, but I just accepted the fact that he loves someone else. I had 2 small crushes through the year, but all of them never liked me back.

There was this math prodigy in my classes, very sweet. We would talk all the time in class, I developed a crush on him over time, it was a small little crush. I eventually told him, but he told me he never looked for a relationship. He was too focused on his studies for a relationship. This made me a bit sad, but I accepted it and moved on.

Then, there was this really cute boy in my Earth science class, english class, and Band class. He was strongly built and was super sweet and kind. He seemed very intimidating, but he was the nicest person ever. When I told him that I liked him, I found out he was straight. He said he was flattered but he didn't swing that way. Fantastic, I fell for a straight boy. But what can you do?

But no matter how many boys I fell for and no matter how much I tried to get over Mark, I was still crazy about him, and I hated myself for that. I've gotten very good at hiding my feelings, no one ever asked if anything was wrong. I know I shouldn't be bottling up my feelings, but I feel it's the best way from getting hurt.

Mark never suspected anything.

Cry never suspected anything.

Ken never suspected anything.

Felix never suspected anything.

And that's the way I liked it.

I didn't know how long I could keep up the act, I was the most emotional out of the whole group. I survived all through middle school this way, now I just need to keep this up through high school. After that, I get out of here for college, and maybe after that everything will go back to normal.