Best Friends With One Direction

chapter 3: Trouble in paradise?

Last chapter on 'bestfriends with one direction' 

"does this mean anything?" 

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Kasper POV:

"does this mean anything"  I asks louis while looking up from where Im laying on his chest 

louis sighs and thats the only thing I needs to know that it was a one time thing which breaks my heart in pieces but I have to act like Im ok with it because I should have known louis would never like me like that. I should have never let him get in my head because now that I slept with him I care about him a lot more than I did before which sucks but ill get over it, I have to. 

I didn't even realize that I was crying until louis lifted my head to look at him and he was wiping my cheeks   

"whats wrong love?" louis asks me while kissing my forehead I just sigh and shrug , I don't know what is wrong with me Im usually not like this, I just care so much about him and he don't feel the same way about me and it hurts because what he don't know is I was a virgin before he took it... 

"can I tell you something"  I ask him and sit up facing him, he sits up against the headboard and looks at me and nods I take a deep breath and will myself not to cry 

"promise not to interrupt me or talk until i'm done telling you everything and if you want me to leave after I do I will" 

"yes kasp I promise now babe tell me whats wrong?" 

"well I first want to start off by saying you was the first guy ive ever slept with. I know that its a big deal and everything and I know you will tell me that it didn't mean anything to you but I also want to tell you that it meant a lot to me because I like you, more than just a friend. I know I shouldn't because you are with harry and I should not expect anything from what we just done but I was just hoping something could come out of it but I know nothing will, Your happy with harry and I hope I didn't ruin anything with you two I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ruined anything you two have, so lou please tell me..will anything come out of this?" I finally take a deep breath from telling him everything and finally have the courage to look at him and he doesn't look mad he looks? confused? 

"kasper, why did't you tell me you was a virgin? I would have never taken it away from you. You should have done that with someone you love and I'm sorry kasper this didn't mean anything to me, I love you but, only as a friend I'm sorry kasper and I wouldn't be able to make you happy like you would need" he tells me and hugs me close to him and it breaks my heart that there wont be an us but I guess friends is better than anything right? right? 

I sigh and just cuddle closer to him cause I know this will be last time I will be able to be this close to him, and then we hear a knock on the door

"hey guys can I come in?"  tabby asks, we jump up and start getting dressed 

"sure tabby hang on" louis tells her as he pulls on his sweats and I sit back down on the bed as he goes and opens the door and she walks in they both walk towards the bed 

"so kasper are you going to stay here with me while the guys go to sound check, kristin already left for work and liam took priss to school hes on his way back now" 

"yeah I'll stay here tabbs I might do a video while I'm here also if thats ok with the boys"

"you know we don't mind kasper well I don't but I better be in it" louis tells me while standing up to get one of harrys jackets, He looks so cute when he wears big clothes it makes him seem so small